She’s a Vandal to her happiness
Her mighty weapon brings defeat
Her mind is an Claymore Of Daggers
Tears stream down as she feels a sudden click at her feet
Suddenly her World’s blown up
It just couldn’t take the heat
She decides to hide it with make up that she aggressively smears on her cheeks

Waterproof mascara and three squirts of make-up setter and then she puts her game face on and pretends she’s all better
She goes to the store
She walks the dog
She blows her husband
And pretends that there is no shrapnel fog inside of her brain
Digging and etching in deeper the pain
Of knowing she is the blame from her own self destruction
Letting her troubles build up until she’s a walking Volcanic Eruption

She looks in the mirror
Who are you?
Who is the woman I see?
She’s smirking with her plaster mask and customer service voice on high permanently

Could she still withstand a storm
Or has it swallowed her whole
Or maybe she swallowed it and it bellows down in her soul

I found my pen dead in a pool full of ink
In a scrupulous world his mark sank too deep
An non-erasable makes secrets hard to keep
I found my pen dead in pen full of ink

Can you blame my pen for fleeting out all he had left onto the blank page
When he wrote in his own rhythm’s you often got enraged
So he backtracks his writing, scribbling deeper into the page
Wasting more of his life on a mistake that’s he’s made
So he figures what’s the point
Busts his cap and falls over into the the spot where you found that Unicorn shaped Inkblot
You begin to see something about the pen that you once could not
You want to start over with him again but you cannot
Through the lesson learned by the suicide of my pen
I think instead of words I’ll draw pictures again
Perhaps this time in Crayon

Pin me up against the wall like a butterfly on a pin
Spin me in circles so I twirl with your grin
You only ever wanted to get under my skin
I’ll be the face of innocence that smiles at your demons
I’ve never felt more studied than in your gaze
Your caged love is just an taste of your rage within

You won’t ever let me go
Won’t run away because I know
Your heart is dark and unfair
I can’t expect you to care
I guess this was just my fate
If you can love you can hate
Did you find me a treasure?
You opened my chest long ago
Deep down down inside if I could change it, I wouldn’t wish it so  

I still think of our first kiss
when I see your face emotionless
I could never live in your spotlight
Like the sun it’s heat was harsh and it was  too **** bright
You can’t take it back and you don’t care
Loving you was my greatest dare
You lured me in just to pin me up
Strangely somehow I feel that it’s enough
I only wish you could see the fire burning inside of me
I never said I was pure
I was broken long before your reached in and shattered me some more

Push the pin in nice and deep
Your secrets I will keep
I’m here with you in hell
I won’t leave you by yourself
Never beat you at your own game
Cause I’m the end we’re both the same
You opened my chest long ago
Deep down down inside if I could change it, I wouldn’t wish it so

Come on baby, let’s have fun tonight
I wanna take the Devil’s hand in the Pale Moon Light
Then drift off into the Heaven that like a lush mountain range resides in your eyes
You’re the only man I want between my thighs
Cigarettes and love produced euphoria
highs are all I ever prayed for in this aching life
Come on baby, let’s have fun tonight

I bought you a Whiskey on the Rocks and myself a Martini Dry
I put $5 in the Jukebox and got dolled up, looking fly
Eyeing you up like you’re the Fourth of July the entire time
We chuckle because Vermouth we say in our oddest Tone
Living like kids who don’t have to worry about what time we’ve got to head home
Just for one night, you and I in our world alone
That’s all I ever want

Come on baby, let’s have fun tonight
I wanna take the Devil’s hand in the Pale Moon Light
Than drift off into the Heavenly mountain range in your eyes
You’re the only man I want between my thighs
Cigarettes and love produced euphoria
highs are all I ever prayed for in this aching life
Come on baby, let’s have fun tonight  

Darling, when you know you know
I love you longer than the end of time
Your soul is my soul
I promise you I feel they’re entwined
I’m sorry I hurt you so
I’ll mend this hurt with everything I can
Please know I mean what I show
Come in baby, let’s have fun tonight

I’m really glad you came out tonight
You make me laugh when you pass the J on the sly
I’m riding the shooting star twinkle in your eye
Love hard before we die
I lean over and kiss you
And you kiss me right back
We lean there embraced unable to comeback from impact
Flashback

Remember how we used to stay up and talk all night
Take tequila shots and laugh about life
Jumping on the couch and having pillow fights
Living wild and free on the Summer Nights

Caught skinny dipping so we had to run
Getting tattooed and hiding from the sun
Staying at the parties until the clean up is done
People used to tell us we had too much fun

We used to smoke hydroponic **** and stay in
Wrestle and play around until one of us got pinned then we’d make love all night and wake up and do it again

Come on, baby, let’s have fun tonight

Politicians and movie stars are playing ring a round the Rosie
Except their pockets aren’t full of Posey’s but the little nosey’s they’d steal from innocent minors
Every time One gets taken it’s like we set another timer and twiddle our thumbs until the next one goes off
Never really taking arms and saying enough is enough
The Good Fight will just have to be tough
Think I’m joking?
Try to call my bluff
Cause I’m about to huff and puff and blow all the ****’s away
Sorry ******* but none of the kiddies can come out to play today
If you put your hands on any of em’ I promise The Peacemaker will blow you away
I’ve had enough and there is nothing more needed to say
But I guess I’ll go in anyway

I mean look at the consequence
Molestation in children like a disease spreads because they give it to one another
Not understanding that what they are doing is sacred and not to be shared so young nor with a friend or an brother
Children should never be a lover
Sniff out all the predators whom are undercover

It’s time for a fire fight and it isn’t gonna be pretty
I’m going to avenge the spirits of the children you’ve harmed and their purity
I’m okay with being your victim so come and get a piece of me
I can take all the dark **** you think and see 10X that darkness radiating from me as I come at you with a mother ******* machete when I run out of ammo
I’ll put you six feet below and laugh while the worms eat you
Smile at the thought of your body being hollow and see-through
Why can’t you just be normal or get some help or off yourself so my life I don’t need to sacrifice
But the thought of a world without your existence is just too nice to pass up
This post has got me gassed up
Ship me today *******’s and I’ll tear their perverted ***** up

#SaveOurChildren

Imagine if I left you high and dry
****** that ***** and watched you cry
While you sit there begging and asking me why
Imagine that I was the one lying to you all along
That I was deleting messages as soon as they’d come
Then when you ask about it I bat my eyelids and play dumb

You want so bad for me to be numb
Pretend that being married is just a piece of paper and in my heart the commitment doesn’t mean nothing
But ******* let me tell you something
You ever bore a child and gave you’re all for a man?
Felt like you were on a cloud when he would hold your hand?
Then realize that holding onto him would be like trying to net fine sand

You call my crazy cause I’m bipolar
I’m only crazy cause I’m the ***** you can’t control, huh?
You forget I used to be the beast, the dragon, the one who went to Hell and came back then spit the venom in my hater eyes
Think you’re better but I’m too good of liar to get caught in your lies

Sick of seeing girls treat each other like their inferior cause they don’t carry the Name Brand
Wanna uppercut the ******* that don’t respect the boundaries of a married man
Wonder why painting your face didn’t just stick to clowns
So the ordinary girls can stop ******* around like they’re a bombshell and sit the **** down
Lift their eyes from the bridge of their noses and take a minute to look around at what really matters in this world
and stop looking down at the less fortunate girls who have souls like diamonds but are so ****** in their minds an cut themselves in the middle of the night and cry to the moonlight skies

Need a girl who likes to smoke **** and chill
A ***** who won’t lie to me and always keeps it real
Talk about our mean together but it never leaves feeling toward them ill
Listen to Jhene Aiko and drink the wine until we get our fill

Trying to figure out how to raise my kids up right in this world of police brutality and crime
Want them to know they can conquer anything and that their lights like stars when they’re gone will still shine
They mean everything to me
They’re well being is my peace of mind
Hard to know one day, hopefully, I first will leave them behind
Just the thought of their beauty brings tears to my eyes
The picture is too big to frame must be the size
Sit and ponder what I’m feeling and always be real with my vibes

Am I that predictable?
Is this question even applicable
What is this feeling that is churning inside?
What am I trying to hide?
I’m an open book so the is a nasty equation to the reality I’m in
Try to cut it like a wire to a bomb but I’m a blind man
So I sit here lost in my mind and explode over here all alone
I think you’re all in on it but the sad thing no one really knows
So I play this sick game between my flesh and my soul
If you feel me you understand they go toe to toe
Trying to see the world through only spirit
So many people around me can’t adhere to it
Making me think I’m loosing my mind just cause aren’t sure they can foresee what’s within mine
Only way I can express myself is through paper and pin
I guess I’ll just wake up tomorrow and start over again

Space Cadet won’t you come down
Keep your chin up girl and put on your crown
You know you’ll wrinkle your face if you continue to frown
Hit another blunt girl and let it all out

I have a family and a life I love
Can’t seem to shake the stress of being a woman in a world so ****** up
Want people to think I’m pretty
Never want anyone’s pity
Been through **** you’d think was too gritty but here I am smiling
Smoking cigarettes everyday but my teeth still shining
You like my word play and the way that I am
But live in me for a day and you’ll see how empty this being can be
You know my face but you don’t know me
Only see what I want you to see
Open book but still it happens subconsciously
Working on my glow up and just being me

Space Cadet won’t you come down
Keep your chin up girl and put on your crown
You know you’ll wrinkle your face if you continue to frown
Hit another blunt girl and let it all out

Deep breathing and a namaste are not enough sometimes to get me through my days
I pass it off like I’m okay and I will be
I have a better future coming than you or I could see
Separate myself from my mind and body
And float away but not too far so I can still find me

Space Cadet won’t you come down
Keep your chin up girl and put on your crown
You know you’ll wrinkle your face if you continue to frown
Hit another blunt girl and let it all out