I do what I want.
I'm running toward the sun.
Forget about obeying blindly,
Rebellion is just too ******* fun.

You can say that everyone is different,
But that's just another way of saying no one is.
Few have a bright enough fire in them for anyone to notice.

Why are you all just sitting still?
Let's go for an adventure!

I've done all this to myself;
And gee, wasn't it "some kind of ride.."?
They all say I've got so much potential,
But I seem to have misplaced my mind.
Awe..

I'm okay.
Seriously. "Hahah!
It happens all the time.."

****!
I am always letting the people I love down.
I rarely write anymore. Compared to the apparent standards.
The root for all my actions I still haven't found.
Yet I am brave enough to say that I let them pass me around..

Anyway..

I try to draw and paint,
But, absolutely nothing truly inspiring or motivational comes to mind.
Also, ugh um , I'm a little more than a wee bit bad at drawing what I see in my head.

But I love art.
Sometimes it just says what words cannot.
God knows I could use help expressing my feelings.
I'm selfish.
Oh! That reminds me, good luck guessing my next move. ;)

Hahah, admit it. That transition was pretty smooth.


Teehee

Feeling pretty playful.
Too bad I'm such an ***!
Why don't I feel guilty for my actions?..

Because I behaved the way I felt and I did it with passion.

**But, seriously.

If the world ended today
If everything was suddenly just swept away
What would be the last thing you wish you would've had the chance to say?

If I could just see your love for me burning in your eyes,
Please.
Just one more time.
It would be more beautiful than even the sweetest of rhymes.

I'm lost in the darkness,
And that light in your eyes..
That was my way out.
I'm sorry.
I left you in the darkness when my light, first, went out.

Now, blindly, we enter this chaotic world.
Searching for a light that, just maybe, we should have never seen.
A light that was never really there..
A light that was just a dream.

So hard to believe it could have been real.
Hard to believe we could just walk away.
To believe I'm not alone
Believe night could ever turn to day
But on we live.
And so, the world turns.
Until my heart finally stops moaning your name,
Until the curves of your face are no longer what it yearns,
I'll reach out my hand.
I'll listen to the wind.
I'll lay down my burdens.
I will find that light again.

I've become the girl my mother told me to avoid.
I'm the friend you shouldn't hangout with
The **** who can't say "no" to the boys
I make impulsive decisions
My demons and I are one..
I don't think of the consequences, only of the fun

I hurt people I love, simply by hurting myself
I admit I inhaled the drugs knowing what they would do to my health

And for some reason.. I was okay with it all
In that moment, I didn't care that I would eventually fall
I wanted the high, and I wanted the low
I wanted to scream it out!
I wanted you to know.
I wanted to say "*******!" for sleeping with my friend
I wanted to call you a liar and say "Never again."
I wanted to slap that smile off your face and watch you grovel on the floor..
I wanted to.. but I didn't, because I'm the one who is the *****.

I used to give others so much trust,
Believe in every promise they made.
But all the tears have turned my heart to rust
And all my compassion and loyalty is corroding away

Deep inside I feel the innocent girl I used to be
I cry for her, and she cries for me
I feel her reach out her hand into the darkness of my soul
And this time, instead of relying on someone else to grab it,
I'm gonna reach in and pull.
And when she emerges,
that beautiful, caring, loving dove
I'm gonna surround her with nothing but pure beauty and love.