I sit in my cage and wait for you to open the door
I've hidden away so long, that you don't even know who I am anymore.
But I see your face and it conquers all the rest..
I wish I could have realized that, for me, you were my best

But I've changed so much since the day we met
And when you said you loved me, I didn't think it was true
How could you love someone you barely even knew?

Since you've been gone, I locked my heart away
But now I'm gonna expose every inch of it
So I cant stop hiding and so the pain will go away:

I love to write poetry
I find comfort when I'm in the dark
I used to cut myself
And I believe every person is a work of art

I've tried to commit suicide
I never had a lot of true friends
I'm terrified of gorillas
And I'd really love to see the oceans

I have tripled the amount of people you said you had slept with
At least four of them are people you know
When you met me I was ******,
So you can imagine that I didn't take things slow
I hung out with the "wicked witch" of your group
And she introduced me to something that helped me not feel so low
And as I was up for days, hiking and praying to find love
Pupils dilated, lying to the ones I loved
I kept think of you, and why I wasn't your one

I stopped taking my pills,
Which were for Bipolar Disorder, not my thyroid
I didn't tell you the truth because I thought it made me sound crazy
I made out with your best friend..
But at the time I didn't know his ex was pregnant with two babies

I slept with your dealer
I dropped out of college
I'd rather have love than knowledge

Hard to make possible, when I'm addicted to ***
I crave human touch
Especially from the one person whose love I will never get.
I understand if you hate me
I hate me too
But I also love myself for finally telling you the truth

I'm afraid to grow up
Afraid of being alone
I'm afraid you wont show up
And that I'll forever be in this cage that's called Home.
But I've been sober for more than two weeks
I'm rebuilding myself
I have to take the initiative and take care of my health
I miss you like crazy..
And when I see you on Facebook I think back to that day
when you told me you loved and then I walked away..

I know that we'll probably never be together
And I guess that's okay
I just hope that you'll be able to forgive me someday.

I walk on broken hearts
Venturing through ruins in hopes of finding treasure
People say I'm better than this
And It's sad, because there will always be someone better

But who saves those who are supposedly less grand than they?
No one.
They just continue on with their day.
And those who are broken can only find what they've already found
And they get ****** into the cycle. Spinning 'round and 'round.
Because no hero came.
Because no one wanted to get mixed up with their name.
Reputation has become more important than salvation
And life has become nothing more than recreation

We are all significant
We are all unique
None better than another
None too good to help the weak

Reach your hand into the darkness,
And pull someone into the light
Save a soul
Do what is right.

I know you don't understand
I know that you tried
But I cant live in a world where I am expected to work until I die

I don't want to argue
And this isn't a debate
I will start my life, and no time will ever be too late

I don't want to be in history books
I don't want a mansion
I don't care about the newest trends
Or having the best sense of fashion

I want to be loved
And I want to explore
I don't see how that's a crime
I don't see how you cant take anymore

I'm not even old enough to legally enjoy a beer in my own country
But I am supposed to work a job I hate and somehow still feel free?
It's hard to explain the reality that I see through my own eyes
The world is beautiful and full of hello's and goodbye's
What is the rush?
Why must I move so fast?
You say you wont be here forever
But, you know, nothing lasts
So take your time
Take a deep breath and trust in me..
**You don't have to die to be set free.

Such an unceremonious goodbye,
Such longing in my sigh..
Yet, I know it's best if I never see you again.
But I miss your eyes
And your enchanting lies
But, most of all, I think I'll miss being able to call you a friend.

Staring in the mirror
Pleading with myself
"No.."*
I keep clawing at my skin but the burning doesn't go
I shake me head, holding my knees to my chest
Someone come and pleasure me
Trembling, sweat trickles down my hot flesh

When I was younger, I had a bright future planned
Sipping margaritas by the ocean while my skin tanned
The love of my life holding my hand..

But in this moment, nothing is what I expected
My passions and my heart, neglected
I know I have a lot to be grateful for
I have people in my life whom give me their endless support
But I'm not satisfied
And I'm not motivated

Feeling unworthy and unappreciated

So many people
So many stories unknown
Sometimes I can't face them
So I dwell with my demons at home

Hating myself for hindering
Hindering out of fear
Choking down potential
Wishing someone.. anyone.. would dry my tears

I'm failing
Failing at this heartache,
This beautiful, envigorating tradjedy we call life
I don't understand why we make it so hard
Maybe I just haven't found the one to help make it right.