Will you follow me into the woods?
Leave your mind behind?
Dance with the falling leaves?
Attach you hand to mine?

And once I've lured you through the slew of trees
And pointed out those honey bees
Then forced you down on your knees
Will you regret the decisions you've made?

I'll tell you you're a filthy girl
Say you make me want to hurl
And then force myself into you
No questions asked

Take away your sweet endeavors
Get my fill of hostile pleasures
All this time you've known me I've been masked

With your innocence I'll take your self control
Controlling someone was my goal
No worries you'll be an addict soon enough
Because a thrill like mine is hard to beat
And the taste of victory is often sweet
Though, you'll always feel a slight defeat

Once he's had that sweet nectar he calls Gin
After he's fulfilled his minimum of daily sin
Adultery and abuse
Tries to choke her with a noose
Then feels bad and gets the blues
He'll cry in the dark

When he gets home early from work
Claims that he's tired
Though in all reality he just got fired
She asked too many questions
And caught the back of his hand
How dare she make him feel like less of a man
He'll drink some of his cherished liquor
And try to lure her in with wine
Says he needs some quality time
There's a hate in her heart that cant be defined

She'll refuse
He gets the blues and
He'll cry in the dark

She takes ice baths to help reduce the swelling
He punched her so may times in the kidney that it could possibly be failing
He comes in to check on her and notices she's not inhaling
Her body is limp and there's blood on the floor
The puddle reaches from the tub to the door
She just couldn't take anymore

He knows that this was caused by him
So he'll get some of his reliable gin
Drinks then let it sink in
And he'll cry in the dark

What happened to those luscious locks?
I don't even know where to begin
Your teeth are decaying from your mouth
Your cheeks are sinking in
Your once smooth skin's now dry and itchy
Lumps and bumps everywhere
Paranoid and hallucinating
Brittle and wispy hair

Why do you do this to yourself?
You're just a snort, a *****, an inhale away
This bitter and odorless powder can take you off this earth today
Was taking it that one time at the party worth all this hell?
Did putting that ice up your nose suit you well?
Can you even remember who I am?
Why are you always trying to fight?
Shhh, calm down.
Everything's alright

You're delusional and moody
But I still love you so
No matter how much you isolate
I'll never let you go

I'll be here when you're loosing weight
And when your behavior seems schizophrenic
I'll be here when your kidneys fail
I'll be here to call the medic
I'll hold your hand through the depression
I'll stay by your side throughout the stroke
I'll be here to watch as you put yourself in the ground
And on my tears I'll choke

And when you have those cravings
For the powder you hold so dear
When you're restless and confused, darling
**I'll be here.

Typical you
Thinking the world owes you something
Everything is supposed to be beautiful
But you sit and do nothing

You string along the guys
Everyone thinks they have chance
But once you've fed you need for attention
You don't even give them a second glance

You lie and you curse
You sabotage yourself
Just so you can say your life is worse
And that its hurting your health

Typical you

You say you're heart is broken
Yet you've never been in love
You think you're so innocent
But sweetheart, you're no dove

You go to church
Yet when leave it's all forgotten
You claim you have nothing
But you're spoiled rotten

You have people whom love you
Yet still lonely you stay
How do I help you
Do we have to runaway?

Why cant you face your demons?
What is the skeleton in your closet that so hard to clean out?
Cant you see that actually living is what life is supposed to be about?
Typical you

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.**

I know I can't change the color of my skin
I know I cant change that I'm human and will always sin
I know I may always have these scars on my body
I know I can't choose my family
I know I can't force love
I know you're watching from the heavens above
I can accept these things
I know I cant change them by any means

I know I can change my attitude about my life
I know this is only temporary strife
Although it sometimes cuts like a knife

I know I can choose my friends
I know I can choose when my journey ends
God grant me the courage to understand
If I reach up, will you take my hand?
Lord give me wisdom
Expand my mind
Show me the hidden treasures that I cannot find
Teach me of your ways
So I may have better days
You are my Lord
I know you'll never tell me no
If I have wisdom about anything
I know you'll always love me so

Dear self,

I'm sorry your spirit is broken
A firefly trapped in a jar yearning to be set free
I'm sorry for your sorrows
They're starting to get to thee
You were meant to shine for everyone
But they are selfish and want you all to themselves

I'm sorry no one understands the dreams you want to achieve
I'm sorry you can't get anyone to believe
Can't they see you drowning?
Drowning in your own tears
Dying in this hell your living is one of your biggest fears
I'm sorry your poetry is full of sadness and venting
I'm sorry your destroying this body you're renting
Deep on the cell of your heart, your memories you keep
Remincing on the easy years tends to make you weep
Why can't you get out of this hole
Apparently your wellbeing its supposed to save
But you may as well be standing in your own grave

Its hard to be sure what you really want
One tiny mistake can illuminate everything you're not
The squeezing of your heart begins to take hold
Somehow you forgot everything you've been told

You look at the past and all you see is the troubles you've endured
You feel the need to escape them, so you have your pedal floored
But the more you repress the tighter the compression on your heart
For nobody truly knows you, and if they did, they would part
You always get thrown away, but you never change your tactics
Because in those moments, when someone thinks you a beautiful find, you feel ******* fantastic

You're a shuttle soaring from star to star
But mostly you live in darkness
Hopefully, someday, you'll be able to stop this..