I wish you weren’t my biological mother
So I wouldn’t be so embarrassed of the person you are.
I’m ashamed of how you left and how you raised me.
I’m ashamed and still learning to heal from the wounds you created.
I am ashamed I tried for so long to have pleased you while truly feeling insecure every day.
I am ashamed I fell for your countless lies and doubt you built in to me.
I am ashamed of the extreme religious beliefs you taught me from a young age that has now indented on my personality with flaws that follow.
I am ashamed that I grew up knowing nothing of the world out there and had to learn to walk on my own.
I am ashamed of the abuse you raised me with and continue to fill people with blinding lies
I am ashamed
But I am not ashamed of the fact that I have pulled myself out of your misery
I am not ashamed I have survived
I am not ashamed that I have come out of this a better person
I am not ashamed of the life lessons I have learnt
I am not ashamed that you are my past.
I am not ashamed to look forward for the future
I am not ashamed of my present

Only villains and heroes
Co exist in this brain
No in between
Or narrow lanes
Black or white
Morning or night

What is normality?
And what is our reality?
Coping by learning
But it’s like I’m burning
I have to try
Or at least I’ll compromise
Accept yourself
Be kind to your soul
And fill that hole
Where you lost yourself

Your love is my life line
Without you I’d fall apart
Smashing into a million pieces
Like tomorrow won’t exist
I live for you
Breathing only with you
You are my happiness
Today tomorrow always
Like the promise we made
Standing at the alter
I will love you
Here now and forever
Through dark times
Black clouds
We fight it through
When we hit the bottom of a well
We have one place to go
Rising together hand in hand
You are my soul mate
Together we are complete
Apart we are like a puzzle
One missing piece
and we are incomplete

Don’t be so blind
Your out of mind
Stop acting so high
When your telling a lie
Tell them the truth
And your problems will go ****

Sweet dreams my love
You were sent from above
Now rest your head
In this cold empty bed
Dream a dream
Like A movie scene
It feels unreal
This was not the deal
I wish you a blissful sleep
And in mind I’ll forever keep
I’m not trying to frown
But To rise and fall back down
how can I be happy
When all I feel is so ******
I can’t bare this part
But You’ll be here in my heart
Sweet dreams my love
I’ll see you above.

Feel like ****
Now ready to quit
My life’s down the drain
Let me guess?
He’s done it again
The very last time I’ll trust
Feels like the journeys been all about lust
Confused what to think, to do, to feel
Well I feel like I’m done
This is no longer any fun
Nothing makes sense
I’m hating this suspense
Why is the question of love so hard?
Just make a decision from the heart
Don’t hurt your brain
Overthink in pain
You may as well be in the dark
Waiting blindly for a spark
So what’s your plan?
Let go of everything you can?
I’ll never be here once you let go
Time to move on and end this show
You’ll think of me now only in dreams
Waking up ready to scream
You’ll be looking left and right
For the rest of your life
Letting go of guarantee
For a hopeless remedy
I hope you understand
Your leaving without a plan
Well good for me
I’m now happy and free
Good bye
Farewell
Take your ****
Don’t worry
I won’t tell ;)

I still love you
Dearly
Honestly
And truly do
I’ll forever cherish you
If only you knew
Many ups and downs
But we always pulled through
Happiest together
Made like it was forever
You are my best memory
But loving you is a felony
Looking a year back
We were like glue
But this is no longer true
What can I do?
The love of my life has slipped away
You feel you can no longer stay
Out of my ability to change your mind
There’s no one like you I’ll ever find
When days were grey
You were my shining ray
I feel like I’m to blame
For you wanting to end this game
But you aren’t the same
I can hardly breath
As you say you want to leave
Can’t you see?
Your all I need?
Tears filling my vision
Is this the right decision?
I have to go, so I say goodnight
I walk away holding myself tight
This is the last time
You’ll commit this crime
I won’t let you in
To this broken tin

Dear husband
How handsome you are
I am grateful you are never too far
You make my days so memorable
A day without you is unbearable
You make my world go round
And still make my heart pound
I can’t imagine life without you
I hold on to your words of “I Do”
Today tomorrow and forever
I couldn’t wish for any better
With you by my side
I’ll be grateful till I die
I’ll still look for you in forever after
You are my soulmate and my partner
Here for you eternity
These words I mean whole heartedly
I am certain of who you are
And that is also in my heart
Dear husband
I love you

Daddy
I look for you Everyday
You are the best for fun and play
I love you so
So I won’t let you go
I grab your hand
And ask what we have planned
You are always there for me
Especially when I am sad
You always kiss me goodnight
And cuddle me tight
I love you daddy
You make me so happy.

If I had the chance
Will you take this dance with me
If I could rewind
To change your mind
I’d do anything for you
With my pillow to my head
As regret fill up this bed
I covered you with lies
As I looked into your eyes
Please can you realise
That I would I do anything to turn back the time
For this one last chance
To make you dance with me
Like a bad dream
I’m trying to fix this seam
Im no longer in your arms
Thought I had you in my palms
Don’t break their heart
Or you’ll be broken apart
A million things I wish to say
Too late you won’t stay
So my last chance
I’ll take this stance
For one last dance with me.