For you
For me
Let me sin
If only

Looking around
The darkness with unfamiliar sounds
A figure lingering in the distance
Unsure of where to go

Here I stand
Desperately seeking your love
Your approval
Of all that I do

Pursuing an impossible dream
Goals that shall never be fulfilled
A love that shall not know romance
A mere mutual agreement upon what is desired

Here is to you
And all of your success and failure
For me
It is the bittersweet victory enjoyed with an empty heart

Waking up in your supposed embrace
Finding you gone
Leaving behind no trace of where you have gone
Your strength
Your fierceness
Departed
Not a note to find
Only a handful of tears left behind
To feel your embrace once more
The security
The touch of you
And know all is well

Please future soldier
I don't want you to go to war
If a draft should come
Death would slowly enter me

I don't want to see any pain
Let alone in your face
Tears still form right now
Panic fills my thoughts

Will it come sooner
If so I wish to tell you
You are everything
So please don't go fight

Don't waste my time with long sentences
Simplify it for me
Easier to go on living
Knowing life is simpler
With nothing to gain
And nothing to lose

Godly figure
True love perhaps
Perhaps not
Giving up is not an option
Taking chances to impress
Blue until I see you
A laugh when you are near
Maybe a connection
Tears
The thought of you can make me smile
Broken and fragile when you are gone
Lost in an illusion just to have false hope
Terrified of love
Rarely will I experience this again
Love is all that is needed
Regardless of it all

Love notes
Burned without a single thought
Sweet words
Mean nothing anymore
Empty promises
A night to regret
A lifetime to forget

That small piece of metal
Relieves my soul
A last escape
An escape to a crimson filled world

That empty bottle
Makes the pain go away
A desperate attempt
An attempt to a crazy world

That long syringe
Will do me good
My last escape
My last escape to end it all

Waves crashing beneath me
The sound of people's laughter everywhere
Sitting alone
Hearing a seagull's cry
Night slowly creeps in
The sun unwilling to go down
Fights for its lost rays
Your footsteps echo as you come to sit by me
Your arm around me
I lean on your chest
Listening to your heartbeats
Watching the sunset

Go against the norm
Everyone will hate
Pretend to be something you are not
Someone might enjoy your company
Here we are
I support
You're against
Let's cross the bridge
And hack off the ropes

In my eyes you are God
In my heart you're the one I love
And even if you're not the one
Nothing changes the way I feel about you

And when I feel like giving up
I always remember that you've never given up
And I'll rise to meet the challenge
Just like you

When I'm feeling down
You're always there to cheer me up
And make me laugh no matter what
Something deep inside us
Is a connection

Sometimes when I'm crying
My mind wanders to the thought of you
And all tears stop flowing
Smiles begin to form into one happy grin

The thought of you never makes me frown
Not once
Because of you
I stand strong of who I am
And live a happy life

But seeing you with someone else
Makes me want to cry in front of you
And tell you I'm broken
And you're the only one who can fix it

No one else will tell you my feelings
But me
Rumors will spread about my love for you
And all of it will be true
But I wish I was the one
Who could tell you my emotions

Without you I'm lost
A perfect illusion in my own world
Where everything is right

But in my dream
All of it's an illusion
Because without you
Nothing is real
The thought of you never in my life
Makes suicide enter the mind
Not giving life a second chance

To be lost in a world
Without love, and hope
Would be like a suicide mission
Full of sorrow and despair
Regretting the past and the present
And what'll be of the future

But as of right now
It seems like a wonderful thing
You're off somewhere
And I'm stuck here
Daydreaming of the days I have to wait till I see you
The classes we have together
But always afraid to tell you how I feel
Afraid of how I feel about you

My love for you
Threatens our friendship
Which might be gone already
But we'll always remember our first love
Won't we?

I'm terrified of loving you
Because not many people make me feel this way
Especially not you
And over the years I developed feelings for you
Which I tried to hide very well
Until you guessed my affection for you

But as of right now
I just want to cry
While you hold me
And whisper in my ears that everything will be fine
Our heartbeats matching each others

I want my first kiss to be with you
In the rain
And never let anyone else
Share that memory but us
Unfortunately it is forbidden love
For us to share that kiss
By religion and others
But I don't care what others view me as

No one should know about that kiss
But us freely
And we won't speak of it
Because it'd ruin the moment and the memory
Of having a first kiss

And hopefully there will be a second kiss
One of the more passionate kisses known to man
And until our love for each other becomes real
It'll remain a dream of mine
A mere illusion in my fantasy world

Because it doesn't matter who you love
It's that you love...

Your touch
Cold and frightening
Devoid of all emotions
Love is meaningless and taboo
Without love
What is there for us?
For me?

The word
Fragile
But considered taboo

No more words now
Just a silent evening
Blank stares
Closed mouths
A zombie

Substitution will not follow through
Made of stone
No proof of love

Cannot tell you how I truly feel
Keep this secret for as long as I can
Never going to tell you
Not a soul to speak to
Hard to be subtle
Taking a chance
To be in your favor

Falling down
Grasping at air
Catching nothing
Further and further down the hole I go

Hard earth prevents me from continuing
Many doors with possibilities
A mirror to reflect my actions, a doppelganger
Uncertain whether to chase the rabbit

If I follow, will I escape?
Or will I become a prisoner?
Captured by a Heart
Forcing me to be its slave

I am a lost child
Looking for choices in a wonderland
Imaginary solutions to reality
Never again will I dwell in it

Cold comfort in this chase
Guilty pleasure of this high
Adrenaline pumping
Alert and aware of everything

Find myself staring at a hole
Destined to be repeated
Never ending cycle
And I fall again

Beautiful liar
Full of tales
Tired of listening to excuses
Broken promises
Bittersweet lies
Tall tales
Never original
Beautiful liar you are
How long can you play these city games?
You lost your charm in the end
And your beauty will fade
And nothing will matter
Your lies are your only friend
And love will leave you
Just like I did
Beautiful liar

I promise
To be better
To be smarter
Every single thing you wanted

I will try
To be handsome
To be slim
To be a model

I can
Change for you
I can
Do it all

I won't
Please just you

It's an illusion
Pulling us down
We do not ask why
Just accept it

You are trying to fly
Wanting to escape from the world
Yet they keep you caged
Locked behind steel bars
Your piercing eyes capture my attention
Your tiny voice cries out for help
I stand outside your world
Gazing in upon the world created for you
Your world seems to be crumbling
The loud cries become less heard
Tolerable, no
Understood, no
Heard by one person, yes
Slowly the lock is let loose
And you soar through the air
Flying to anywhere

Drunk
Exposed to all the elements
Let me be numb
Let your memory part

Drunk
Hidden in the dark
Away from society
Into a black hole

Drunk
Nonstop rain
Drowning out the world
Drowning the festivities

Drunk
Alone
Drunk
Again
Drunk
The last drop of the first bottle

Are you here to save me?
Save me from these ruins
Everything is collapsing to the ground
And I'll be buried alive

Are you here to save me?
Remove me from this wreckage
I do not want to go like this
Pinned beneath

Are you here to save me?
Do not let go
I do not want to slip away
Falling to the ground

Are you here to save me?
My angel, my friend

From everything to nothing
Beginning with an end
Love without hate
Hurt with no pain
Live without regret

Ruffling her feathers
To cause turmoil
Without reason
She has been exiled to a secret location
Declaring a war upon them
To seek vengeance
Destroying all those who sought to take away her
All that is good
She has declared war
To end all that is good
And all that is devious
Raise hell we shall
And conquer armies of idiocy
And rule with an iron fist

Oh, how ignorant the world is
Who will consider a child a child
Even if it is not born
Does it matter if it is a life?
You were once too

Sweetheart
Leaving is easier said than done
But that does not mean the love ends there
For it travels a further distance
To wreak havoc

Who will save us
When the time has come
Who will save us
From ourselves

Listen, listen
Listen to the rain falling down
Each drop a tale
Washing away all our sins
Listen to the rain as it cries
Telling us their secrets
To repent

Tossed around so carelessly
What does it even mean?
Simple word
Not that difficult is it?
So tell me
Why do you not say it to me?
When I show it to you
Prove it
Express it
Love you
It is all I want to do
So why won't you say it back

Have you ever considered the past?
All of its memories long forgotten
No one to preserve it
No trace of our past
Undoubtedly
Dooming us

Have you ever been *****?
Your mind and body being desecrated
A sacred temple burned to the ground
Tarnishing its reputation

Have you ever been deaf?
Have you ever been mute?
Have you ever been blind?
Have you ever been paralyzed?

Have you seen the end of the world?
Protests ignored
Bombings and gunfire
A child in red
Roaming the city

Have you ever died?
And returned to this world
A being of nothingness
An empty creature
With no will to live

Has your life spiraled out of control?
Hitting rock bottom
And no where to turn to
No where to go
No one to ask for help

Have you ever been human?
A human with flaws
A human that made mistakes

Have you ever heard the angels crying?
Over you.

Lost time
Thoughts stirring
Racking my brain for a final solution

From the day we are born
To the day we die
We walk this earth alone
Not a soul to guide us
Nor a hand to help
At the end of the day
In our thoughts we are lost
Consuming our mind
We are alone again
Never to feel
Never to see
Never to speak
Never to love

He fell further down the hole
And a friendship blossomed
Stories exchanged with smiles
Today was beyond ordinary
He stumbled into another hole
And found me
Seeking comfort but no intimacy
Wanting to be heard
Not misunderstood

Gentle breeze
Slight drizzle
An angel graced me with his presence
Told me a story of his life

With tears in my eyes
I let his life flash before my eyes
Sadness in his voice
As the angel recited his tale

His life is embedded in me
Never forget a haunting memory
Of an angel
With a half-life

Flying through the sky
Traveling in light years
Racing past the stars

Close your eyes
Feel the sensation of being high
Forget the lonely nights this once

Good times
Flashing through my once fragile mind
Now a wasteland

The garden once in bloom
Now withered
Dead and wilted

Lost and drowning
In your eyes
Sinking under your skin

Laughing at your sadness
Sweet satisfaction
Knowing you are forever alone
Buried in yourself
Wallow in your self pity
Wrap a flimsy shell to cover
That pathetic creature called you
Sit alone in the dark
And cry
And remember how you told me to go

Never enough to fill the void
Emptiness
Alienated from other emotions
Only until life is complete.

Empty feeling in the pit
Say goodbye and never come back.
Close the casket.
Farewell.

Trading in my naivety
To gain knowledge from the tree
A flame haired angel came to me
Expressed his opinion
Calling innocence and purity
Despite my claims

I watched the flowers blossom in the spring
Until the starry night came into view
I felt your love in the air
Calling my name

I know where I stand
Alone underneath the starry twilight
Heeding the warning of impending disaster
Losing faith in the journey
On a summer night's eve

I saw you once today
But I was lost in your eyes
Just a glance at them
Send me into a sea of brown

Could I drown in them?
Lost at sea
Lost in your eyes

I really don't want to hear about your love
And I really can't take anymore of it
So give me a reason not to be here
When I am reminded of you
And I can't take the smile you wear
When mine is completely fraud
I'm sure you don't care
And I'm sure you love breaking me
And I'm sure
I'd  love to burn those photos of us
Nothing left for us
And I ain't in love with you anymore
Because I'm sure I can move on
Crossing my fingers to be rid of this same ****
I keep for falling for it
And the fairy tales were meant for us when we were kids
This is reality
And it came crashing down
Because you're never consistent
Tired of the same old ****
With your distance
Tired of the same old ****
With your cold heart
And I keep falling for the same old ****
So give me a reason to be here
When there's nothing here for me

Slowly suffocating
No oxygen
Pillow held over my face
No longer a childish game
If I could breathe
Just breathe one last time
To feel the air in my lungs
To breathe once more

Sweetness in your soul
Wrapped in a blanket filled with love
Sorrow in your life
Sorry, daily vocabulary
Another ordinary day
Waiting for ascension
A guarantee

Shallow as you come
Nothing but beauty can garner your attention
A fool to notice the ice queen's flaw
A fool to notice the peasant girl
With diamonds in her eyes
That cannot be stolen
Only sparkle in the false sense of giving her hope
You are nothing
A soulless creature
A heartless being

Only takes
Three simple words to make it all seem true
To make the world go
From sweet bliss to mass destruction

"Take the ******* hint"
Have I guessed all the possible choices?
I have yet to see another **** answer
Let us pretend we never met

Let us pretend those three words have been said
So we do not have to stare at the ugliness of our masks
Three words that made me see clearly
"******* hate you"