You don't get to see it but nobody gets the me that you get. You bring the calm to my chaos and soften my rough edges. God knows I have a lot of rough edges. You cushion my steel spine and break the glass covering my heart. I wonder if you know how much power you have over me.

I know you're going to break my heart
I can see it inevitably as a fast speeding train heading for a wall and sorely lacking a break to stop it.

I feel a small lit candle burning in my chest growing into a fireplace built up by Wood and bark and feeling's too hot to keep in a jar

Its been years and I can't put my trust back together yet
You aren't him
Why can I not go on a date without painting you all the same?
Cheaters
It hurts most when I'm alone and the air around me is silent and cold and I wish I could see someone as a possibility to be happy instead of the weapon to cause me harm

I think I love you
I'm trying to go on dates and make a connection but when the evening turns cold and our laughs grow quiet it leaves me feeling hollow and low
Because it doesn't compare to you
We fit and I don't know how to shake that

It'd be nice to be someone's first for once
Unrequited feelings are an unwelcome whirlwind that seems to escape the ability to prepare for it
I didn't prepare for you to know me like this
I still have so much I could show you

You get me wrapped up in this feeling that this is important
That this is something good
And then she messages you at 2am when you're wrapped in my arms and it reminds me
I don't get to have you
This is simply a shared release that leaves me bare and tender