Downing in her tears
That monster makes them come alive the nightmares become fears.

One day it won’t be enough you’ll say sorry baby I am not happy any more it’s not enough and I’ll let you go because I love you that much
This life would become hell just existing would then be too much. I hate this routine and the distance even more but living these tough days  make me realize there’s no other person I’d do it for.

Constant fear is who I am
Fear of losing you
Fear of betrayal
Fear of you leaving me lonlier than that of which I already am
Who am is hurt
Hurt when you go out and experience the things I don’t get to
Hurt when you leave me to go away for college
Hurt when reminders tell me how horrible I once was
Hurt when I’m laying in bed alone at night wishing I didn’t exist.

I wish I had a compass that led me straight to you
It’d always tell me where you were that way when my heart gets heavy I’d make my way through
You are my survival the only thing I need led to
my beat when my heart stops pumping
You make me brand new
I’ll always need you forever
You are the only one I love
so hopelessly endlessly infactuated I’ll never get enough
Call me crazy call me needy call me lame
because you make me feel that way
but I’m a servant for love at your feet
I live to hear you say my name
It doesn’t matter the day
where I’m at or where you are
Id run to you in a heart beat no matter how far
you’re all I need and want
without Id be so lost so handsome you best believe me I am certain you are the one.

Us on a beach as you brush the sand of my feet you're so good me.
This must me a dream because I've wished for a moment like this all my life.
A perfect man beyond handsome beyond sweet and me as his loving wife.
This, you, us, more than I could have ever asked for I'd move heaven and earth to make you happy its you I only adore.
What a ride this has been one I will never get off of, you my dear are an inexpiable stellar love.

Does anybody on here have really bad anxiety or depression please help I need someone to talk to

Wish I had you close to me not just my soul
Wish the words were endless and I didn’t run out of stories to be told truthfully it’s not the distance that makes me feel alone but the silence  and lack understanding I own.
Your life different then mine and everything I wish that I could have the friends the hobbies the laughs. You the only good thing that makes me forget the life I wanted people that have left and thoughts that leave me haunted.

When you are old and mad don’t forget the good times we have had when the bills stack up and the stress is never ending don’t forget I love you we once said it was transcending and when you wake up your your bones are sore and you can barely remember the day before I’ll hold your hand dear and look  into your angel eyes  and whisper in your ear honey I've loved you since the day we've met I'll love you always my dear.