Tiny tiny toes I let go
How could I survive be alone.
A walking pacemakers what I am swinging my arms as my head ticks and forgetting where I am.

I don't see a future reality.
Why are you looking at me.

Hold me in the dark,
but shelter me as you scar my heart.

Ask me who you are to me I'll tell you what you'll only be
You don't feel the same to me.

Late to run late to hide late to hold my own.
Late to turn back change my mind and leave it all behind.
I done you wrong like so many else said sorry said goodbye can't rewind.
Birdies flutter on the ceiling before you fly to the sky.

I just wanna find my way
You clever with he words you say
But if I go out I'll go out too far, way to far i'll lose my grip as I find the thr pain suffocating myself.
Lose the fight that's left.
Will the bitter be more than sweet if I use only my two feet to heal myself from this grip you have on me.

Little broken girl jumped in too deep
didn't test the water with her toes now pain as she walks on her own feet     but it must be me      how can this be    look at you so broken you like this makes me weak
The hear you say you just want the pain to be over maybe evenly to end
I did this, not you?
We?
What's wrong!?
Drowning and drowning each day as everything persists.
Please I'll do anything to make this better just tell me what it is?
Maybe I'm crazy I hate my mind lemme leave you and this world behind
I'll cause no more pain or feel it in return don't keep me in a box nor a urn.
I wanna be in the stars *** these days they are the only thing that makes me forget
But these snow clouds snow so hard I only see a white abis
So take me away on the clouds..that abis that looks as if it's light.
Slam my head a little harder so I don't have to use the knife.

This period of time which hasn’t consisted of a lot
A few kisses and visits along with the forget me nots.
Just one month can explain what all may happen in a year
Even tho it wasn’t perfect ”I still love you..” is all I want to hear
You almost left me once and that was just after a couple of weeks don’t let me down now I will surely grow so very much weak.

Downing in her tears
That monster makes them come alive the nightmares become fears.

One day it won’t be enough you’ll say sorry baby I am not happy any more it’s not enough and I’ll let you go because I love you that much
This life would become hell just existing would then be too much. I hate this routine and the distance even more but living these tough days  make me realize there’s no other person I’d do it for.