Is happiness within the self?
Is my happiness in someone else?
Happiness comes and goes
Much like a river that flows
Polluted by all I have and haven’t done
I’m just trying to have fun

A person that gets it is all I want
A person to feel the pain of empathy
Someone to hear what haunts
Someone to feel and see me
An endless cycle of pain and misery
For which I long to complete
I myself cannot end this repetition
Of this endless cycle of my sin
Is it a man or woman?
I can’t say
But for now, I am the one to pay

The boy doesn’t eat
The boy doesn’t sleep
The boy only sits and weeps
The boy doesn’t say or show
The boy keeps within all that pains him
The boy is not alone but feels he is
The boy wants all taken from him
The boy feels a shadow
The boy doesn’t know
The boy doesn’t back down
The boy always holds his ground
The boy keeps his head up
The boy will never ever give up