I lie on the bed
I cover my face  
Waking up has left me 
With my soul out of place  
I dig my nails into my hands
And lace my fingers to ask for grace 
But I am too scared to ask God
To cleanse a girl so debased.

I devour myself
Dissolve myself like acid
Erode myself
Starting at the sides, I move in on myself

corner myself
shatter myself
Starting at the edges, I consume myself

abrade myself
crumble myself
Starting at the ends, I chip away at myself

Break myself
Mistake myself
feed off myself
Inside, I devour myself

I have made mistakes
Quiet a few
More than I can name to you.

I have fallen short
Dug my grave
Thought I wasn’t worthy to save.

I’ve given up
I’ve fallen down
But I’ve not remained upon the ground.

Because life is short
And moments fleeting
So, in spite of my fearful heart,
I will keep dreaming.

Nothing can fill this hole inside me
The endless vacuum that makes me want to scream
That creates a desire to cut open my seams
A void of despair
How do I repair
The brokenness I find
In all of my dreams

I’m sorry I’m your heart breaker.
Penny-pincher; love-taker
Joy-sucker; hurt-maker
I’m sorry I’m your heart breaker.  

I’m sorry I’m your worst fear.
Pull you close; hold you near-
But now I’m going to disappear.
I’m sorry I’m your worst fear.

I’m sorry I’m your dark night.
If I could give you wings- let you take flight
I would in a second- to escape my own spite.
I’m sorry I’m your dark night.