Alex - Hello Poetry

Alex Mar 2023

Somehow

I'm falling apart
breaking into pieces
so tired of these lies
walking on thin ice
living off distractions
always scared of your reactions
making me flinch at every action
It's too late now
no chance of redemption
anxious every time you're mentioned
I just wanna live my life
where you are not in sight
so I can have peace of mind
but the memories stay
more than I can handle
so until they fade
please stay away
It's too late now
no telling how
but ill make it out
somehow

Alex Mar 2023

By my side

hold me tight
for just a moment
let me feel whole again
putting back the missing pieces
that has been broken
I feel so cold
to the point of shivering
could you have me
could you save me
from this misery
this loneliness
just keep me warm
till the morning end
and the down begins
hold me tight where is no light
won't be my sunlight
to keep me safe
from that darkness
that dwells inside
and strikes at night
I'm tired of fighting on my own
you make me feel
like I'm not alone
so please stay by my side
even if it's just
one more night

Alex Sep 2022

I'll be okay

Oh honey it's going to be all right
Can't I be by your side tonight
Just asking in the moonlight
You don't have to be alone
You're the only love I've ever known
You can't break my heart
it's set in and Stone
I hope you know
You don't have to fight your battles alone
With me you always have a safe place to call home
In this world we're all alone
It beats you down and roughs you up
Until eventually you give up or stop giving a ****
But it's different for everyone
no one should have to fight alone
So we meet people along the way
that eventually help make us okay
So can you let me be your safe space today
I'll let you go out and play
even if you don't come back another day
As long as you end up happy and okay
That would simply make my day
You may not be around but I feel you in my heart
Sometimes I think back to the very start
I don't know what I could do that could make you stay
but it's okay
Maybe for you it's just another day
I didn't quite expect you to go away
I'll be okay
I hope I'll be okay
With just being another day

Alex Jun 2022

Never again

They called you up
You let them in
They betrayed your trust
So never again
Will you let them in
Your walls stand tall
Above them all
You won't let them be
broken again
They broke you down once or twice
But never more
That's enough to shove them out the door
They aren't worth breaking for

Alex Jun 2022

Lives on in memory

Once they leave your life
they never quite leave your memory
like peter pan
never quite changing
or older
never quite coming home
lost in the neverland of memories
never to be seen again
just like a ghost

Alex May 2022

Can't compare

*******, mom and dad
You don't mean **** to me
All you cause is misery
You messed up bad
you lost the one chance you had
You lost your only child
Cause of you I never got attached
There's no coming back
I used to always walk on eggshells
Now there will be no heartache
If you go down with a heart attack
You were a handful
Always throwing tantrums
Make sure you always won
*******, mom and dad
You don't mean **** to me
All you cause is misery
You messed up bad
you lost the one chance you had
You lost your only child
Cause of you I never got attached
There's no coming back
I used to always walk on eggshells
Now there will be no heartache
If you go down with a heart attack
You were a handful
Always throwing tantrums
Make sure you always won
Don't compare me to you
I'm better than you will ever be

Alex May 2022

*******

You ******* idiot
you ******* coward
you ******* gambler
you aren't going anywhere
this path will only lead you to despair
As you burn yourself right to the ground
It's your own **** habits that keep you this far down
You better stop before you dig yourself deeper
You've already taken and lost everything
You abandoned me, yourself, and your peers
Chasing your own selfish desires
What did you expect to hear?
I told you the truth
If you kept this up everyone would disappear
I thought that's what your ******* feared
I sure as hell know I didn't deserve it
what made you think any of that was okay or acceptable
nothing would make the **** you did worth it
did you lose your self-respect and manners
your not the person I remembered you to be
Maybe if you just listened to me
We would have avoided this ******* misery