She was 13 years old, when her life changed
Still unknown if it was for better or for worse
All she knew was that it hurt
It made her feel as low as dirt
Everything began to fall apart
It all started that night, so afraid, so scared
She didn't want to feel the pain anymore
Frozen she couldn't help she couldn't protect anyone
The sreams repeat over and over
She cant forget, it hurts to much
The memories filled with so much pain and misery
That night her world came crashing down
Father had a little too much to drink.
And mom didn't want her to feel the pain she felt.
But she still felt the pain…
She will always feel the pain
For a year that night kept repeating itself
Then he was gone and mom looked for love in other men
And she tried to act strong
broken hearts and scars in places only she could see
Cause she just wanted, she just wanted to feel something
“When will everything be okay again”
The question that is asked over and over again every day

No one ever asks if i'm okay
But when they ever do i say i'm fine or good  
I lie through my teeth
i'm fine
Even though im really not
I don't want them to worry about someone like me
I stay in a haze of lies
When i try to escape i get pushed back in
Every word cuts through
It's like putting salt in a wound
Say something stupid, something distracting
Or leave it alone and don’t say anything
I see all the shadows passing by
But i keep my head down
In fear i might break down
I might be losing my mind
I’m already haunted inside
I can't say anything
There's nothing to say
Im speechless
To afraid to ask for help

All i can hear is the sound
That echoes in my head
It's full of darkness
I'm straining to reach
To escape
The light on the surface,
light on the other side
i feel the pages turning
As i write what happens in my mind
The candle of time is burning down
My time is running out
As the wax starts to spread
my hand weakens
And my eyes fall
I can write no more
I have lost my strength
I will soon be gone
When the light of the candle stops flickering
And the ink turns red
I will soon be dead

There's No point in fighting,
  As it starts again
I'm only but a meaningless being
I'm a bit troubled as I wander alone
My last dance
To forget my own misery
I want to get away, everything to just start over
I hear the noise, I run and I'm afraid
Is this my turn?
Here comes the pain
I abandon myself
Nothing but hope
On this road of absence
Try as I might, my life is nothing but a meaningless shiny decor
For Whose offences have i paid in full
See how my heart is broken
For i have been shattered
I'm a child of the world that has been broken
And soon to be replaced

When it's the past that prevents you from moving forward
So nothing can get better only worse
It feels just like a curse
Breaking you down from the inside
Building up the walls to keep others out
No one will forget the mistakes you made in the past
They don't care who you are
They only care who you were then
They make you want to change
To hide away in fear
When you really just don't want to be here
Breaking down every night
Not even wanting to fight
You lost your strength
You lost your hope there's nothing left
Just empty silence
you're all alone
They all left you
There's nothing left
There's nothing there
you are left in despair
And no one cares

So many empty seats to go along with an empty heart
sitting all alone with no one left
it hurts inside as the tears start to fall
for she if falling herself, falling into the darkness of her mind
wanting to leave everything behind
wanting to just end it all, no one will be there
no one will care for the seats remain forever empty and her heart will never be full,
so don't wonder why,
if I suddenly die, no pain will be felt,
no trouble will be caused,
just another mere life that came to a early end.

Her heart was once full and pure
Filled with happiness and joy
But one day it became empty and dull
She was broken
Her once bright eyes have become a void, To hide the true feelings inside
Her life has become full of fake smiles and lies
Most days it's hard to look in the mirror
Ashamed of the scars that tell the stories,
that want to remain untold and hidden
She finds herself with tears in her eyes without reason
For the voices inside the mind make her want to run and hide
Her mind has become a scary place
she never knows what to decide
She was one full of energy and was ready to live her life
But now she has become tired and weak
Now she doesn't even want to wake up in the mornings
She doesn't want to be alive
She had no one she was completely alone with the demons in her mind
They have finally won
She's numb, she feels nothing now
She is no longer alive, today was her final day
But no one was there for her, they all left
They ignored the signs, the cries for help