I try to blur my mind wid smoke
So dat your memories don't cast their shadows again
I'm inking all of dis down wid the blue nd black pain
As it gushes through my veins like adrenaline rush
I listen to the music we used to submerge into...
but tht brings back the painstaking turbulence within...
Through liquid tears filling the brim of my eyes
.... But
But the truth is the world robbed both of us of each other .....
And now dat I'm dead on the inside my pain is incarcerated within ...
Everyday wid every drag I stab u living inside me ,
Now tht you've left me all alone .. bleeding
Coz you've done dis ....
You hve to breathe widout me if dats Wat brings u happiness ...
I have to let you go ...Coz I love you ,
Coz ....
My heart says love him ,
My mind says hate him ...but they both wish I had him .... I'll always luv you

Many times my mind goes blank when i try to know why you are what i see
but i can only think about you when you are near me
head over heels, that's not a good sign
but i just can't seem to change my mind
over and over i try to break free
yet you unknowingly have so much control over me
my emotions go crazy as i try to get in control
but i'm not sure i want to, something in my soul
i try to get focused to work it all out
but i don't know what all the commotion is about
in the end i'll just wonder
my heart is set, so does it really matter?

How things started to be unfair
This isn't a complaint,grievance nor grumble
This is the voices of people whose hearts
are crumbled.

How things started to be unfair,
where looks are preferred while hearts are ignored.
Money took over when capability was before.

How things started to be unfair,
where society started to judge
with grudge
without thinking how those hearts feel.

How things started to be unfair,
when the unlawful lawful
the lawful is banned.

How things started to be unfair

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In the midst of knowledge and lack of interest.
In the midst of the schizophrenic and the sane.
In the midst of a generations pulse and silence.
In the midst of rainbows and a shade of black.
In the midst of learning within walls and mistakes.
In the midst of a diamond cave and decay.
In the midst of recession and curiosity.
In the midst of ******* and beliefs.
In the midst of losing and meeting people, with in people.
In the midst of corruption and delicacy.
In the midst of holy metaphors and touches.
In the midst of scratched knees and ignorance.
In the midst where black smoke, meets clear blue skies.
In the midst of isolation and others thoughts.
In the midst of debris and empires.
In the midst of a womb and a crippled old man.
In the midst of what you saw, hear and everything to come.
In the midst of phases and judgment.
In the midst of an ultimatum and obligation.
In the midst of white sheets and brown eyes.
In the midst of fantasies and ceilings.
In the midst of sight and dreams.
In the midst of contact and illusions.
In the midst of classification and fractions.
In the midst of repetition and time.
In the midst of blame and arrogance.
In the midst of feelings and stones.
In the midst of a significant others warmth, and a stranded iceberg.
In the midst of emotions trapped under dry soil, and the season they bloom.
In the midst of walking with clothes, and sleeping naked.
In the midst of eternity and extinction of saliva.

I’m here waiting to pierce through your existence.