you used to look at me
eyes sparkling like diamonds
i took those blue stones
hoped no one would find them
but i saw you look at her
with the jewels you gifted me
now i clutch them in my pockets
mourning the worth that used to be

I only drown us more
When I reach for your light
Pull each other down deeper
Into the eternal night

When the cut starts to heal
Erasing harm that has been
I worry you’ll forget
Your the one who slit the skin

So I pick at the scab
Fingers wet with blood and blame
Then its not really i
Causing me pain

My hue molds to yours
Blend blend blend
To the backdrop I will match
Colors I merely lend

I grab your fingers
Dig them into my scab
Covered in blood
Make them stab stab stab
Because then it is you
And not me who is liable
Your fingers are stained
My healing now viable

Limerence limerence,
Deceitful glimmerance
Obsession so vigorous
Never indifference
Aching of ignorance
Blazing sun naive Icarus
Eats flesh it's carnivorous
Delusions somniferous
Sickly it's pestiferous
Beautifully belligerent
Rhythmically rigorous
Absent of deliverance
No relief its vociferous
Nervous and timorous
Feels auriferous
Pleasure vicarious
Thoughts nefarious
Making me furious
Death seeming curious

I am covered in glue
Words stick to my skin
Bareness I pursue
Glue pours from within