There were some bad things said about me,

I cared back then, now I don’t,

There were some good things said about me,

I care, I always will,

My past is dark, but I feel that my future is going to be very bright,
That’s all I care about,

Is the good words spoken about me and the positive vibes and moods and my future

School has been smooth these past weeks,
But will it be this smooth when the end of this year comes,
I am happy I worked so hard to make it this far,
I am trying so hard to achieve my goal and my biggest goal in my entire life right now at this point is to graduate from high school,
School is a great place to get away from the people at home and home is a place to just get away from the people at home,
I personally think I like school more because at home, there's not no one there that I feels cares about me but my mom.....

My dream is to be all that I can to be successful,
My reality is to be happy, inside and out,
I want my dream to become a reality
because my reality is already reality.

Now me, I am hard working,
Now me, I’m physically strong AND mentally strong,
I am strong in all ways,
Now me, I am focused,
Focused on having fatter pockets,
Now me, I care what people say because I want ALL good things said about me only,
Now me, I’ve been through hell and back,
The name calling, the tears, the times I wanted to die and just be forgotten,
Now me, I am important to myself,
Now me, I will spoil myself,
Now me, I’m focused on the things that matter...

I feel like God has put me in a battle,
A battle with the people who can’t stand me,
It’s a battle because I try to be higher than them,
That’s a way of defeating them,
I’m at a higher level then they’ll ever be,
its a battle because they try to defeat me by their words,
God is testing me, he is try to see if I can survive this huge battle,
That’s what he’s trying to do,
I can feel him breathing over me, watching me closely

What would the world be like if there was no god, no life, no future, no success, no nothing?

My life has been a storm,

I was broken and abused,
Treated wrongfully and used,
And it was not funny..I was not amused....

She moved away, an hour away,
Like I always did, I won’t see her everyday,
She had the game but she didn’t play,

She just left, with no words, no tears, no hugs and no good byes,
Why did she move? Who made her move? Are my why’s,
She won’t be able to hear my soft cries,
Without her, my soul slowly dies,

I felt like she had something mentally with her,
She’d always get mad when I put in hard effort to talk to her,

I know this is not that deep,
but she always sat down beside me and talked to me...
but she left me...

I’m giving up on love,
I want it to hit me so hard that
I wouldn’t even see it coming my way...

I made a new friend,
She is so different, happy and beautiful,
I felt at once that she was best,
And that I had nothing to do with the rest,
But wait her commands, obey and be grateful...

I want to CREATE,
I want to discover,
I want to achieve,
I want to turn this world into happiness

I hate Christmas, I never get nothing for it,
That’s why I’m not looking forward to it...

I am a powerful human being,
When I am about to face my fear,
With my heart quickly beating,

I am very VERY unique,
Many strangers can agree,
I make people laugh, I always succeed,

I am a hard working student,
I am more than human,
I am always making good movements,

I am an outsider to most,
To many people, I am an overdose
They want a huge dose...

My stomach cramps aren’t the best,
I just want less,
This is just a big mess,
I guess it’s trying to have my buttons to press

She had compliments always comin,
She couldn’t accept them or agree with them
because she thought she was an ugly woman,

She hated her own image,
She looked at herself in the mirror
She only had hate for herself...

I don’t really understand why he doesn’t like me the way I like him...

I want you to drown in my love, in my faith, in my soul,
I want you to have a overdose for taking me so much,
I want you to love me a whole bunch,
I want you to fall in love when I hit you with a love punch

When I make promise to someone I love,
Trust and break that promise,
Even if someone nicely asked me to,
I’ll put my everything into that one promise,
Just for the people I love ❤️

I am a powerful human being,
When I am about to face my fear,
My heart quickly beating,

I am very VERY unique,
Many strangers can agree,
I make people laugh, I always succeed,

I am a hard working student,
I am more than human,
I am always making good movements,

I wish I can put the broken pieces together in my past...

I want to drown in your love,
I want to be cuffed,
I just want to be loved,
I want to be hugged,
I want to be drunk in your love

Halloween gone, Thanksgiving gone, now comes Christmas,
The time of the year where our families tortures us,
By not buying us any gifts or not giving a f*ck,

I want to feel secured in my life,
I want to feel protected, I want to feel safe,
But, everyone doesn’t get what they want...

You are the moon when there is no sun,
You are the flowers when May has begun,
You are the stars that glow in the night,
You are MY moon that shines so bright,
You are the baby that cries it mother's name,
You are the love that drives me insane.

The more I get hurt,

The more I don’t put my all into one thing because I already know that it is going to be what I expect, which is bad,

The more I get lied or be lied to,
The more my trust issues affect me more

I don’t want anyone being tortured or hurt mentally and physically or verbally, so why would someone want that to happen to me?

I remember everything,
I remember getting picked up,
I remember getting knocked down,
I remember taking a step forward,
I remember getting pushed back a step,
I remember being so happy,
I remember being mad at the world,
I remember when something bad was said about me,
I remember being the most loved,
I remember being the most hated,
I remember being called good things,
I remember getting called bad things,
I remember when people wanted to talk to me,
I remember when they didn’t

I want you to drown in my love, in my faith, in my soul,
I want you to have a overdose for taking me so much,
I want you to love me a whole bunch,
I want you to fall in love when I hit you with a love punch.

I want to drown in your love,
I want to be cuffed,
I just want to be loved,
I want to be hugged,
I want to be drunk in your love

Yesterday, I made a new friend,
I really hope we be friends till the end,
She has a very fun, nice and cool personality,
Her voice is so squeaky and it makes her sound like a baby,
But I love her voice, I wish my voice was girly and high pitched like hers,
She seems like a nice girl but people aren’t what they seem sometimes,
I just have to keep my eyes open...

Everyone lives their own story,
Everyone knows what they want to do,
Everyone wants different things,
Everyone get treated different ways,
Everyone live different lives and lifestyles...

I wish there was a way to maybe turn things around,
Maybe we can react differently to things,
Instead of lashing outnand fighting, fussing, and cursing,
We should try to fix this problem or our problems that we have together,
We have to fix them and come together as a group, now or never,
We should stop fighting and accept what things are and what they may be like for a while,
We have to do BETTER as people, as ourselves, as people of different race,
Because we don’t want no one talking down on us,
We must do more that what’s right....

There's a voice inside your head
That whispers all day and everyday,
"This is not the right thing to do,
I feel that this is right for me".
No one can decide what's right for you,
Just listen to your conscience and that voice inside of your soul,
Just listen to what speaks inside of you,
Know what's right and what's wrong.

I don’t understand why there is so much hate in this generation,
Some of the hate must be questioned, more like an interrogation,

I don’t know why all this generation knows is hate,
Some guys hate me knowing one day, they’ll be the one to ask me out on a date,
Some of the girls hate me but one day, they’ll be fixing my plate,

This generation needs some integrity,
They need love in their pity hearts,

How am I the only one that has a warm heart?
How come that heart gets hurt?

What I don’t understand is why I’m always a second thought,
Other peoples attention can never be caught,
In burning flames of fire, I hope they rot,
No one will never like me unless I do something for them I was taught,
Their smiles and their kindness, it feels like I bought,
People just need me for what I got. . .

There’s a lot of things I don’t know,

But I guarantee you, I will know by the next week or so,

Rumors, lies, and the truth spread but that’s how things go,

Perhaps, there are some things I rather not know..