I can read you like a book,
I can hang you with my mental hook,
You pass me in the hall and don’t even turn to look.....

I loss someone who always had made me laugh, smile, whatever,
I loss a family member to a heart attack,
I’ll never stop loving you and that’s a fact,
You are something i will now lack,

I’m happy you made it all 2017,
All this sad stuff got me thinking god hates me,
God took you too early,
I know you’re watching over me,
I love you, My cousin James Adams,
I’ll never stop shedding my tears for you. You are still my buddy, cousin, everything...I’m glad I gave you a hug when I had a chance. I LOVE YOU ❤️

Great,  now its the new year,
That time is getting closer where I have to face my worlds biggest fear,

And that fear, is walking across the stage, in front of this hug crowd,
It’s like over your head, there’s a really dark cloud,

I’m scared to walk across that stage,
I’m just very frightened and afraid,

I want to start this year off by being CONFIDENT, HAPPY,
What I never was in the year 2017 or any other year out of my entire life...

I apologize for being too kind,
All my kindest moments I wish I can unwind,
Grateful people in this universe are so hard to find,
However, I’ll keep the nice people in my mind,

I apologize for opening my heart,
Especially for those who have no heart,
It’s ok because they weren’t there for me from the start,
Rude people from me, will have to depart,
Of me, they ruin every peace of my art,

I apologize for trying to rekindle things with people who just don’t care about me,
In every situation, I always thought, there could be a “we”

I apologize for stressing over whether people like me or not,
That’s why I don’t have a circle of friends, I just have a dot,

I apologize for not believing my instincts.....

Down in my heart, there’s lots of love,
In my arms, there’s plenty of hugs,

Down in my stomach, theres junk food,
On television, there’s plenty of things to brighten up my mood...

People ask me all the time,
“Why are you so skinny?”, “Do you even eat?”
And I always respond with “I don’t know why I’m skinny but I am appreciative to be skinny” and “I eat every chance I get when I’m at home”

The world is colder when you’re not there...