You’re always there no matter what
haunting me from my past
I try to fight and do what’s right
but the happiness never lasts

You’re there in my morning routine
when I get up and take my shower
in my afternoon nap you take control
who knew you had such power

The worst of all is in the night
that’s when you are the strongest
with terrors that feel so real
my nights they are the longest

You’re in my head with every thought
accompanied by guilt and shame
twisting everything to dark
playing your wicked game

You’re evilness is spreading wide
I can feel it trickle through my veins
when I look into the mirror
I can see eyes filled with pain

The scary thing that I’ve learned
is that you can only be
if I keep my heart dark
and let you live within me

I know we are here to share poetry not music, but as poets we know that can be one in the same.

I was blessed enough to take part in this music video, and lay down some guitar tracks as well.

If you have been a victim of abuse, I highly suggest watching this. It might just change your entire day.

https://youtu.be/uGHTOE5cl4E

I'm angry
I'm sad
I'm anxious
I'm mad

I'm exhausted
I'm uninspired
I'm pissy
I'm tired

I'm drained
I'm barren
I'm depressed
I'm done

Mommy yells and she screams
more now that she stopped drinking
I thought she'd be better
but what was I thinking?

Mommy's always been angry
at the dogs or at me
Sometimes I'm just playing
and she comes in screaming

Mommy seems so sad
sometimes glued to the couch
I try to ask what's wrong
her only reply is "ouch"

Where did Mommy go?
Will she come back to me?
Is this being passed down?
Will my children hear screams?

I hope Mommy comes back
and the doctors fix her head
I'm so tired of being scared
and hiding underneath my bed

I still love my mommy
you know I always will
but Mommy's disease is
a silent thing that kills

******* and your control
******* and your hold
I want my mind out of this hole
I want my mind out of the cold

******* I said, and your power
******* I can't stand anymore
I want my mind free from this blur
I want my mind free, I'm not a *****

******* just let go
*******, *******!
I want my mind to flow
I want my mind back... I can't stand it!