It kills me, so kindly,
The demands of my second-closest friends.
To join them in chasing joy—
No, not joy.
An addiction to excitement,
A slow erosion of discipline.
It promises everything I don’t want,
But they want it—
And I want them.
It kills me, so kindly,
Tearing between what and who I love.
Who I am and what they want me to be.
Love me, but don’t bind me.
Inspire me to change, but don’t make me.
You **** me, so kindly,
But regardless of the method,
I am still dead.
**** Me Kindly Pt. 1