That horrible in between...
Limbo.
Stuck somewhere in the middle,
Angry and sad.

Living in limbo,
No real place to be
No place to stand.
I live in limbo.

Unsure where I'm going
Where have I been?

I feel the words on my lips,
I'm sorry.
Feel the streaks of wetness down my face,
right after those first tears roll down.
No moment so pure in confusion.
Unsure of what words to say,
the "I'm sorry" becoming over used,
becoming normal.
Casual.

Art is my life,
madness is my muse.
My best works come out,
when I feel abused..

Give me back my life,
breathe back my air.
I love you,
I'm just so scared.

I don't rely on people
yet somehow I let you become my heart beat.
You're my blood,
through every inch of my being.
Keeping me alive.

Flowing,
rushing,
you seep into every part of me.
I want to bleed you out,
But that would mean I'm dead.

Why must I need you so badly?
I'm too scared to love,
and I'm too scared to stop.
I know I'm being selfish
but the thought of two dependent people,
two "I need you" people,
terrifies me.

Please never leave,
I need you...

I've come to like the distance,
I enjoy being distant.
Solitude comforts me.
Society disappoints me.
People just irritate me.

I know I shouldn't,
but I worry of things that won't change.
the ignorant people,
liars,
the lack of humanity.

Girls dressed like women,
women dressed like prostitutes.
The violence and lack of respect,
it's deafening.
What happened to this world?

I can't stand to be around this,
not anymore.

I've come to like the distance,
I enjoy being distant.
Solitude comforts me.
Society disappoints me.
People just irritate me.

What is jealousy?
In its simplest form,
insecurity.

The emotions involved,
fear of impurity.
The nagging thought,
disloyalty.

The dependance,
that need for security.

Little fighter,
tiny soldier.
Playing with tractors and trains,
don't grow up.
You're too young to feel these pains.

Little fighter,
tiny soldier.
A father who left you so long ago,
a drunken addict.
Whom you should never have to know.

Little fighter,
tiny soldier.
Playing your games all day,
what is it like?
Secretly just hoping "this dad will stay"...

Little fighter,
tiny soldier.
Always protected by a careful mother,
be careful fighting the war called life...
I worry about my little brother.