music shaking
lights breaking
bodies moving

but it was just us
drunk in the moment,
drunk on each other

moving slow
while the world
spun

and the space
between us
shrunk

noise everywhere
but inside us
electric silence

promises made
with no time
to hold them

promises made
like they already
belonged to us

and there was no tomorrow
only you
only me

moving slow
in a night
that moved too fast

I thought we would be done by now.

But I keep finding more of you
between the lines
and more of me
between the letters.

I’ve never experienced heartbreak
 in the traditional sense,
but I’ve felt the breaking of myself,

shattered into little pieces,
to fit in the mold of me

I’ve known the fracture of my needs,

bent and twisted to support you unconditionally,

until I forgot where I ended and you began.

I haven’t known heartbreak in the way they speak of it,

but I’ve mourned the self I never had,

grieved for the things I could never hold,

stumbling over my own words,

falling in silence,

afraid I didn’t matter,
disappearing slowly

No, I haven’t known heartbreak in the traditional sense,

and maybe that’s why I’m afraid of breaking hearts,
because the only thing left
 are fragments of a shape I was,

before I trimmed my edges,
cutting away the parts of me that couldn’t fit,
Over and over, until there was nothing left.

When you know you know, they say,
And when I met you, I knew,
But up until that moment,
I had known nothing at all.

Had I known that morning would be our last,
I would have made coffee for you,
like you always did for me.
I would have watched the steam rise,
watched it disappear,
the way our love did.

Had I known that morning would be our last,
I would have stayed in bed a little longer,
just a few more seconds,
pressed my feet against yours,
felt your breath on my skin,
and have  that memory to play on repeat

Had I known that morning would be our last,
I would have told you
about all the lives I have lived for you.
And I would have poured you coffee,
Just like I had poured all of me into you,
And I would have watched the steam fade into nothing,

Just like I did.

The words slipped out-
"I don’t want this anymore"
Had I blinked,
I wouldn’t have said it.

And just like that,
they took shape,
sharp as thorns,
wilting his smile
as they struck.

And just like that,
I stood alone,
Had I blinked,
he wouldn't be gone.

Their good bye echoed as trains swept past in orange ribbons of motion and light.
They stood still with smiles quietly glowing,
reaching out to hold time in their hands,
hoping it wouldn’t slip away.

They were torn apart by trains bound for opposite destinations,
But their souls remained dancing on the electric rails
Rising like mist in the moonlight,
Carrying their laughter through magic dust lingering in the air

For a fleeting moment,
time shimmered-
between the trains,
and the faceless passengers.

And they held onto eternity,
transcending the faces of the unknown,
Forever in their memories