If she was poison, I'd die trying to convince her she was wine

I can't make sense of what you see
It feels so good
the days when you're all over me
but by tomorrow
it will feel like you're over me
and set to leave

There's nothing quite like when you lie to me
by lying in my arms,
silently pretending that we can be
more than just you and me.
And there's nothing I love more
than when you lie to me from the floor
and tell me that you don't want me anymore.
So there's nothing I can do
but lie beside and lie with you.

I choose to use you for my own self abuse.

Everyone wants to be wanted the same way they want

Just say the word and all this can change, you can get what you're after with no restraint, but you have to speak if it's ever to start - your silence is the lock to your little heart

I need to tire myself out before I get home lest I be too awake to sleep on my own

Up in the treehouse the lights have all gone out, and the curtains are keeping the sun from shining in. The floor boards are broken so you best watch your step or you might fall to the bottom and be met by your death. And I really don't mind if you want to fertilize the ground surrounding my fort, but if you're gonna do that let me know so I can dig a grave for your corpse

Why does it always come to this
Losing my way
Over the same old road
It only goes one way
But I don't know which way to go
So every now and then I turn around to where I've been and start walking back

I never feel alone when I'm by myself at home, but when I'm out with my friends it never wants to end

Maybe if I don't think about it the mess will clean itself up,
And maybe if I didn't doubt about it I wouldn't be feeling so ****** up,
But maybe if I started shouting about it you would all see that I'm breaking up,
Or maybe if i stay quiet about it the pressure that I'd endure might be enough to ensure that I never get up

Can you tell me what's so wrong with taking it slow?
Can't you see I'm not ready for where this could go?
"Let's throw away all that timid patience" you say,
Oh but what if something in that pile could save us one day?

Sleeping with your head against my chest, with your hand in mine, is the sweetest dream I've had in some time

When given two choices I always choose wrong, whether I upset you by staying quiet or offend you with a song. No matter what I say or don't say, do or don't do, there's always a reason my decision hurts you.

You see me and I see you
Now what are we gonna do
Because I know you know
And you know I know
There's something deeper than we let show

Remember to fake it with all of your heart
I found that you play the most convincing of parts
When you're down on your knees
Begging of me
To set you free
But I don't want you or any of your responsibilities
Be a man
Take charge of your life
Maybe then
Some dumb girl will become your wife
But for now stay away from me
Don't you dare look at me
With those sad eyes
Remember the time
You said goodbye
This is like that
Except I'm letting you die
My friend
You will be born again

You know I could never walk away
I'm gonna stay no matter what I might say
You could **** me off to the moon
And when I return you'll still be welcome in my room

Do you mean to be so alluring?
I'm not sure if you know what you're doing
To me. I see something in the way to speak
To me. I'd take it any day of the week,
But I don't know if you're really giving,
Or if this is just you being silly.
I hope you're aware and taking notice
Of all the things, I thought you'd know this.
If this is a dream then I hope you don't wake me,
But if it's not then I think I need a shaking.
It can't be real.
I'm yours to steal.
You make it feel
Oh so surreal

The chances are slim
I best walk away
I think I'll save my luck
For another day

You want it
But have no need
You crave it
But you'd rarely feed
Once you're inside
You'll want right out
Then back again
I have no doubt
This game here
Is one I own
No one else
Sits on my throne
I claim calamities
And assume atrocities
All while the quiet
Voice inside hides

There is a weight
Tied tight around my throat
Pulling me deeper every moment
And as I sink further into the abyss, I find I no longer need to breathe
And thought it's too dark for my eyes to find light to latch onto, I can see exactly where this weight is taking me
Into the wide open empty place that nobody dares to visit
Into myself, and all the darkness I contain
I will be carried to the bottom
And never return

I don't always mean what I feel inside, but sometimes these feelings are too big to hide

We never really did wrong, but we know we never did right, so let's do what what is left, let's give it a try tonight

I'm a rock caught in your shoe
And I won't come out
No matter what you do
You can shake me, but I won't come loose
You can hate me, but I'll stick with you

It might be dumb of me to ever believe that there could be one out there meant for me, because when it comes to she I can never seem to find one who enjoys seeing me the way that I know how to be

You're in denial of the truth, despite that every morning you wake up lying next to the proof. You stare it in the eyes and say this can't really be real life, I must still be dreaming of you

Can I just lie and say I I'd be fine spending the rest of my life without you by my side, every time I see the morning light in the same place we laid ourselves down in the night?

For no one, I'll do anything
For myself, I'll do nothing
For you, I'll do everything

I've got you in my sights, way high flying through wide open skies
You and I are all alone up here, dancing around dangerously in the stratosphere
Dare I pull this trigger and take you down?
If I do I promise, I'll beat you to the ground

Nothing will go as planned until you start supplying your demand

What's the point of a finite race when all of time is the same as space?

Joey was a friend of ours
He died when we were young
Now we make jokes about it
And so his name lives on

"This time is for real, there will be none greater than this!"* - a record stuck on repeat

I'm tripping over something
I know it isn't new
I'm falling into a strange thing
It could just be you
I have found my missing mind
There's nothing I can't do
And my heart has finally found
A love more than true

If you dare to dig in and take the descent into the cratered crevices of my mishandled mind, I can't provide a promise that you'll like a penny piece worth of what you'll find

It's my constant conscious consideration that I don't want a cataclysmic complication, but this constant intoxication is a writhing indication that I have already let all the bricks fall right off the wall

Thoughts like insects,
Six legged sadness carriers.
I bash my head against the wall,
To hear them pop and splatter.

I can't see the future, or any future to be precise
I can only see lies and a bed buried in ice
Where I lay my head
I won't think again

I never really wanted to
But I'll say goodnight
My hole is too holy to infect with your logic or your truth

I believe only in nothing, and that peace is a void
I don't believe that we are one of God's toys
When we all die
There's no paradise

We go absolutely no where
Just rot in the soil
And never dream again of something more out there

Four rearing to tear you apart
Horses tied to your legs and arms
The steeds take steps to stretch you flat
Scorpions sting suspended back in surprise attack
Fire spiders consume the flesh biting every inch with no rest
Bees swarm intending to harm and bleed from toe tips to end of arms
Ravens reveal and ravage the face tearing eyes and lips from their proper place
Enough is enough the four horses rush on pulling you to pieces and like that you are gone

I've often been given the old aged advice:
"Don't put all your eggs in one basket"*
-but I don't really see a way to apply that logic when I only have one carrying case, and the fact that it's full of holes only makes things easier to misplace. Besides, I only have one egg to hold onto, so often I find my hands are my best tool to use, but too hard I squeeze such easily broken hopes, so all I ever get are shell shards and yellow yolks

The moment called,
It's sorry you missed it.
You were too busy planning out your living.
You can't call it back,
It has already passed.
But do you really believe it was really the last?

Sitting in a full room
Only know one person
Everyone else is empty
Including myself
A task I can't take
Even if i did
It'd only make me a fake

How quickly you forgot all the things you said, and I misstepped as well but I had you causing a wreck inside my head. Anytime I'd try to write all my ink would come out red, on a thousand pages my feelings for you were bled, and it hit me so hard because I hung on your every word, then hung myself from the rafters and watched my life swing over the disaster. Now you've come back blaming me for things that you misheard, you always had me so misunderstood. Forget you, I know that I should, but when the only person that you even care about says they're leaving for good, what did you think I would do, feel sorry for you? Because I'm such an ******* to have driven you to disperse, you knew it was me but you didn't know my verse, and now since you've been gone things have only gotten worse. Every night I've been stuck awake, trying to put a pin on my mistake, hiding away in my lonely place, feeling like I'm gonna explode, because no matter how high I'd get I still could not forget your face. I felt like I was in space, like I removed myself from planet earth without a trace, but deep down I know I can't escape this place

Write a line, cross it out
Spill another, still no good
One more time, cross it out
I can't quit even though I should
Page to page, wasted ink
Word for word, still can't explain
What do I mean, I can't think
These thoughts have driven me insane

You are not the needle sticking out of my arm as I nod off silently
You are not the pipe lying in my lap as my body starts shaking violently
You are not the pill case resting by my side as I fade away on the floor quietly
You are not the bottle in my hand as I slam my car into a van filled with a family

You are the substance shooting through my veins, relieving me of all my pain
You are the smoke soaking my lungs, bringing me to a mystic plane
You are the powdered capsules floating in my stomach, promising to take me far away
You are the alcohol mixed into my blood, granting me courage to not care for this place

You used to cower at the smallest scent of trouble at your doors other side, and you'd run for the harbor to escape the land whenever storms headed ashore were soon to arive, not caring about what you'd leave behind or the people who wouldn't get a goodbye, suffering self-inflicted ruthless alienation every time fear found its way into the center of your mind, you'd kick and scream and swear you would die, just to put an end the terrors that only your eyes could find

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