I wish I could meet you
But I'm too afraid
If I could see you
You'd still go away
I should have called you
But I couldn't try
If I could hear you
You'd still say goodbye
I wish I could hold you
But my heart says no
If I got to have you
You'd still choose to go

All day, every day
He tries so hard to hide away
But no matter how deep the hole, he can't escape from his own soul

He wants separation

This is not justification

He's living degeneration

Now this is desperation

I am not a flammable substance, though I can be reactive under the right conditions
If you add yourself to my solution, my chemistry will violently reject you and send my own existence into remission

I'm so scared of losing what we have

I don't want to have to forget because the pain of remembering is too intense. I don't want to wait through the empty years until I can finally look back on our time fondly and know I've moved on. I don't want to have the violent and guilt ridden nightmares reminding me of what I've broken. I don't want to feel the engulfing embrace of loneliness or the fantastic freedom of self destruction. I don't want to avoid certain songs that I love to prevent the ugly feelings of shame and regret that carry over every note of the tunes I used to consume with you. I don't want to be forgotten by you
I want you with me, always

I could conquer countless countries
And neatly annihilate entire nations
All from the comfort of your palm

I would waste working worlds
And completely dispose every creature
All for the praise you might give

I don't feel like floating away today
But my feet refuse to to touch the ground
I need direction, a guide to hold my course
I want a weight to wrap my arms around
Anything at all to hold me down

If you really loved me then
You'd still love me now
You'd do anything to make it work
It wouldn't matter how
You'd give all that you have
Because I'd do the same
But since you cannot
I know who's to blame