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87 · Oct 2020
shy death
Anna Josephine Oct 2020
last night I wished to die,
in the morning I ate like a queen,
dying makes you hungry.
Life feels dreamy
I keep on sleeping,
slowly fading
you won't hear me go.
87 · Nov 2020
let me be
Anna Josephine Nov 2020
I wish you understood that this is me trying.
I'm not as perfect as you expect me to be,
I did a great job pretending,
but my will is ending.
please just let me be a nothing,
let me breathe fresh air and not be trying to prove something!
let me cry because I'm sad,  
and not have to justify that.
let me be, please just let me be!
because if I don't stop pretending,
there will be no me,
left to be.
86 · Aug 2020
Mr paper
Anna Josephine Aug 2020
Dear, Mr paper
I'm writing you a letter.
An ink to page bond,
To help me feel better.
86 · Sep 2020
Kisses
Anna Josephine Sep 2020
Why is the sound of two people kissing so repulsive?
That clicking icky yuckyness makes me feel sick.
Jealousy exists in dreams like an ever present message.
The bell tolling the marriage that will never exist.
Fireworks like wishes wishing that clicking was us.
84 · Sep 2020
Dollies
Anna Josephine Sep 2020
We used to play with barbie and action man.
Fake weddings, wars, hand in hand.
Even then I would dream of my Ken.
With a perfect dollhouse, lifes play pen.
You were my male role model, someone to protect me.
I did whatever you said because you meant a lot to me.
I still played with dolls when you grew out of action man.
you made me play new games, you! a real man.
I hate you with all my inner child.
I hate you even though I try to forgive you,
I cant.
I hate you for putting the action in man.
81 · Aug 2020
Old romances
Anna Josephine Aug 2020
There used to be romance in everything we did.
Atleast I thought so...
Now all I see is two people sharing the same memories,
Separately.
81 · Aug 2020
Avoidance
Anna Josephine Aug 2020
What a terrible situation you are in.
Blood hot, boiling under your skin.
Eyes not met and smiles not shared.
Little footsteps are everywhere.
Daunting doors and crowded spaces.
Filled with demons are these places.
Heart now racing tick, tick, tick!
Brain on fire get out quick!
Shaky hands and heavy breaths.
Back to safety it's time to rest.
80 · Nov 2020
Mother
Anna Josephine Nov 2020
There are a thousand things I wish you knew,  
then I remember you do,
you know a lot.
You just don't understand,
and that's a thousand times worse.
80 · Oct 2020
The unmarked road
Anna Josephine Oct 2020
I move in life like a bumbling bee,
a lost tumbleweed.
Tripping and stalling at my choices like a fool.
All the while I'm watching you.
You're gliding effortlessly like them all.
Facedown on the ground, I see you as I crawl.
Close to the earth, I can feel your path,
jetting and dotting, forward and back.
We move in life like bumbling bees,
lost tumbleweeds.
Smearing and smudging our footprints of reality.
79 · Aug 2020
Mirrors
Anna Josephine Aug 2020
Making faces in the mirror
Hoping something beautiful will surprise me
My face is still chubby
Like an adult baby
I don't look like a movie star or model
Just a square faced messy unfortunate
Is that a grey hair
You've got to be joking
Hardly in my twenties
Looking like a witch already
What if I put my hair this way or that
Or turned my face
Or ****** my cheeks in all the way?
This isn't vanity its pure insanity
My mirror must be broken
79 · Sep 2020
drunk
Anna Josephine Sep 2020
Stupid red bottle,
you're not red you're green!
You don't judge how I feel,
and that's worse than living,
feeling, breathing, nothing!
just drinking because I'm not an artist, a scientist or a lover,
I'm absolutely nothing.
I'm just a red-green bottle that tastes like vinegar!
76 · Aug 2020
Orange dreams
Anna Josephine Aug 2020
Wood dry and crackling, fireworks for two.
Flames amber auburn, Heating up the room.
Mugs of tea and old books, Reading on the floor.
Blankets thrown over our knees, Our sleepy fire roars.
Snuggled up and toasty, Our dog now sound asleep.
Sunday afternoons like this are my favourite kind of dream.
73 · Jun 2020
Life
Anna Josephine Jun 2020
I want to live life to the fullest.
Filled to the tipping point of love and laughter.
I cannot stand waiting for life that will come later.
I want to dive and scream and fill my lungs with purest living dreams and never look back.
I want to hold somebodies hand and swim in every ocean.
I want to sing and dance and travel and romance.
I want to ***** society and live in harmony.
Surrounded by trees and plants and the very best company.
I want to wake up and not give a **** about what people think of me
and make love to the one and drink morning coffee.
I want to be enlightened, intelligent,happy
I want to live life to the fullest
and I want you to join me

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