She battles her demons, day in, day out.
They don’t stay quiet, they scream and shout.
They tell her she’s ugly, they tell her she’s fat.
Her thighs are too big and her stomach’s not flat.
She starves herself but that’s not enough.
This desire to be thin has proven to be tough.
It’s making her miserable, it’s making her sad.
The quicker the weight loss, it won’t be as bad.
But the weight is staying and it won’t disappear.
She’s taking it to the extreme
And she’s making it clear
That she wants to be thin
And thin she will be.
But what you don’t know is that girl is me.
Jan 15, 2015
Jan 15, 2015 at 5:04 AM UTC
you may have done me wrong a number of times,
but i will always love you.
there were times where you treated me like **** but at the same time you treated me so nicely and that's what i fell in love with.
you are the person i love,
you are my 4 am thoughts,
you are in my mind.
i need you.
Dec 24, 2014
Dec 24, 2014 at 11:20 PM UTC
My scissors and i keep a secret
(I can't afford a blade)
My mind and i are stuck
(I cant find the key to our cage)
My scissors and i keep a secret
the one where i deserve the pain
My mind and i are stuck
in the deep depression stage
Sep 5, 2014
Sep 5, 2014 at 7:18 PM UTC
I still find myself
feeling your skin
in the spaces between
bed-sheet creases
and if
missing you is like
swerving into
oncoming traffic,
then tonight
I’m sleeping
in the road.
Sep 2, 2014
Sep 2, 2014 at 12:04 PM UTC
*it's not like i didn't expect us not to last forever but it's not like i expected us to end like this either because to me you were the night and we both loved the night it's when we opened up and expressed ourselves, it's when we would talk and i could hear your voice that sent shivers down my spine and caused carvings in my walls, but now those carvings are covered up and i don't know what to do with your name or your clothing because i can't stand to see either of them, it creates a hole in my chest and the heaviness returns, all of the tears come out and honestly i hate it to an unruly extent
i hate how much you mean to me when to you i was always nothing but a parasite,
i hate how much i want you back when you're already moved on and ready to shoot,
i wish you could have loved me
and cared about me
and considered me a lover
because all you did was fill me with lies that led my reality and i can't stand it anymore i can't get out of this ******* reality i wish it was oh so easy to forget about lost loves like it is in the movies but it isn't and it burns words into my soul and cuts calories into my wrists until i feel light again but that lightness is only temporary and when it subsides i can't help but feel alone again i can't help but need you beside me kissing me senseless
but it'll never be like that
it never was
i regret
everything.*
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 5:43 PM UTC
i'm stuck in traffic
during a rain storm
in the middle of the night
and i'm subtly reminded
of when you stopped
holding my hand
as much as you used to
the cracks in the windshield
remind me of us
i cross another county line
and i think it's just like you
same place
new name
my veins are power lines
running through this ghost town
i'm so full of electricity
but no one taps into it
i guess i'm useless
it's been a long time
since i've seen anything special
in the shapes of the clouds
i don't think hurricanes
know that they destroy so much
maybe that's why you don't know
that i'm in this kind of pain
the cracks in my windshield
are getting bigger
i think it's going to shatter soon
could you imagine
the window shattering
and the glass coming at me
as i'm speeding
down this dark and rainy road
i don't have to imagine
i've already met you
[holyoak]
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 2:25 PM UTC
I come into a place
where everything is floating
It is a dark place for me,
nothing will pass into my liking
The houses are haunted
and thorns are everywhere
It is like a dangerous forest,
all paths lead to nowhere
At first I am scared
and I want to run away
Creatures have different languages,
I don't understand what they say
Everyone seems grinning
Like they want to tear me apart
What else would I think and do
If I feel they would break my heart?
But I have nowhere to go
so I decided to take the risks
I am scared but there's little courage
I am gripping with my fists
With the flicker of hope I wander
to study the mysterious place
Bit by bit I learn something,
enough to cope within each phase
Until I find little creatures
that thriving on a haunted tree
When I stop nearer to them,
they seem so scared, so afraid of me
I feel that sadness, I am bothered,
why they're afraid, I'm just harmless
My little hands could do nothing,
I just want to watch them exist
But suddenly one of them comes
closer and flies in front of me
I realize it want to be handled
so I open my hand and let it be
It settles down on my open hand
while I walk around, it is my light
And I'm thankful for the little lamp
now I have lessen my fright
A little light that gives me hope
it makes me strong and lessens my load
That tomorrow I can find the way
to get out of this darkest road...
Aug 18, 2014
Aug 18, 2014 at 2:06 PM UTC
*You **** me in different ways
But I'd still choose you
Because you break my heart like no one else does*
Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 6:04 AM UTC
dear Married couple with children of any age,
dear divorced /couple/ with children of any age,
I want you to know that it's not that weird
for your child to love someone from a distance.
from a distance so far that your child and their love
may never meet.
I want you to know that even though you think it's
childish, and fake
love comes in many unpredictable ways.
your child suffers because that person is so far
from them that they can only dream about them.
your child suffers because you can hold your lover
every night, you can kiss them, hug them, or hold their
hand whenever you want
and you take that for granted,
when your child can only hear their loves voice while
you're asleep, or see them through screens for minimal
hours.
your child is in love with someone they've never had *** with,
so how can you say that it's based purely off of lust?
two people devoting themselves to one another for a long
period of time with no possible way of having ulterior motives
sounds way cuter than
you living your happy lives while your child thinks about someone
day and night but may never meet them,
they know they can never introduce you to them because you will
shun them,
turn them down.
that's just sick.
Jul 12, 2014
Jul 12, 2014 at 12:09 AM UTC