It flies amongst the stars.
Flashes for a moment.
Despite the left scars.
Holds a place close, yet far.
It carries the fallen.
From mistaken paths.
To reaches impossible.
And develops new plans.
It creates new countries.
Raises dead soldiers.
Stamps unsung heroes.
With a feeling of free.
Hear its silent sound.
Open up your eyes.
Place it in your heart.
Elevate from the ground.
It helps us climb.
Better than rope.
Do you see its shape?
It is hope.
Jan 1, 2018
Jan 1, 2018 at 11:41 PM UTC
Lol I’m ridiculous and I know it
I’m not proud of it anymore because my hopes were too high
my sad little expectations were too much
again
but for some reason I fell fast and hard
because you were different
lol **** do I love you
yah.. stupid I know you had her and now you have HER
and you will continue to have a spot in my heart
and seeing you loving her
**** that was a blow to my ******* heart
lol i know right funny and again kinda stupid
also a hella waste of my time and energy
but that is what it goes to
our little time together
was amazing and helped me grow
more and int a better person
( in my opinion that is)
thanks for a summer m8
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 11:57 PM UTC
I promised you I would eat
I promised you I would actually try in school
I promised you I would do my best
I promised you I would try to stay strong
I promised you I would try not to worry about you
I promised you I would always be there for you
I promised you I would always love you
I promise I will eat
I promise I will actually try in school
I promise I will do my best
I promise I will try to stay strong
I promise I will try not to worry about you
I promise I will always be there for you
I promise I will always love you
I made these promises to you
and I intend to keep them
no matter what happens
I will keep the promises I made to you
I promise you that I will keep my promises to you
the ones I have already made and
the ones I will make in the future
Aug 17, 2016
Aug 17, 2016 at 11:35 PM UTC
I'll see you soon
you're just on a little trip
you'll be back in April
and I know nothing will happen
but still a part of me is worried
I know you aren't stupid
and I know you will come back
and won't leave me forever
you promised and you don't break
your promises and I know that
but part of me the part of me I don't
like doubts everything happy in my
life but I'll do my best to ignore
the doubt cause I know you and
I know you won't leave me forever
cause you aren't just a guy and you
aren't like guys in general you are
different good different and these coming
months without you will be hard but
I will keep my promises and I know you
will and I think while you are on your
trip it will show us if our relationship
is a good one cause I think it is and
well they say distance shows the truth
all I am hoping is that the truth doesn't hurt
and I know you will talk to me as soon as
you are allowed to my love
I love you so much and I miss you
so much and it's only been a day
Aug 17, 2016
Aug 17, 2016 at 11:08 PM UTC
I woke up this morning in a fright
I had a dream and I haven't had one like
this in a while but it was different I wasn't me
in the dream I was watching the dream
I had awoken from seeing me
blooded wrists and crying
for forgiveness my skin no longer pale
but strikingly red I was scared and he was
coming to help me but what if he was too late
the once white cloths are now stained a bright but
dark red and my just crying and sitting on the floor
of my bedroom and my parents and siblings all out
going to see a movie I didn't want to see yet
and I decided to call him for help to call the one
person I didn't want to know about this if it was to
happen and my head pounding hard and me thinking
" I ****** up I ****** up I ****** up" over and over and over again
head pounding so hard I think I am going to pass out and I am
not sure if it's because of the blood lose cause it can't be that much blood
can it? It was only 3 cuts I think or was it 4 or 5?? I don't quite remember
Now I am freaking out cause I don't remember how many and I want to
look but I don't want to get blood on the floor and about 5 minutes passes
and I am about to give up and close my eyes and go to sleep and then I hear
running and I think I am imagining it my bedroom door is closed so I can't
see if anyone is actually there or if I am imagining the running I hear banging
on the bathroom door I must have closed it I am just sitting on my legs leaning over
with my arms resting on my legs with the red cloths on my wrist and I hear a loud
bang on my door and someone say " where the hell are you Lizzy?" and I want to make
a noise but I can't and I don't I just stay sitting like that in the middle of my bedroom
with ****** wrists staring at the cloths and I hear a bang at my door again and
I want to make some type a noise and right before I do the door opens
and he is there just staring at my tear streaked face and then he looks
down and sees the cloths the ****** gross cloths that I want to burn
and his face changes and I see pain and sadness and almost every emotion
in his face and I just start crying more and more and saying " I am so sorry I just
I didn't mean to I didn't mean to I don't know what happened I just" he looks
at me and says "just be quiet you are working yourself up more which will just
make you bleed more" I feel like I am about to pass out and he is keeling on the ground
in front of me and he is about grab the cloths off when I just lea forward and lay my head on his shoulder and close my eyes and I keep them closed I want to g to sleep and get away from the nightmare and he softly picks up my head and says starts saying things like, " you can't go to sleep wake up you can't give up on my come on just open your eyes come on lizzy" and he starts yelling those things at me and I just don't have the energy to say something cause I am about to fall asleep in his arms like I have always wanted to and right before I am about to dose off maybe for a little bit or maybe forever he says with his voice breaking; " You said forever and always." and that hits ,y bran and my heart and my eyes start to flutter and they open and he says, " Oh thank god..." he lifts me up and starts carrying me and then I fall asleep and then I wake up in real like all sweaty and I instantly check my wrists they are clean except for some black ink and I start freaking out cause
all I could see when I blink is my sitting there with ****** wrists and I don't know if I should tell him about this dream or keep it a secret... could it ruin our relationship if he finds out later? and what happens f this dream becomes a reality I don't want it to though but I keep having similar dreams but this one was the worst and bothered me the most...
I just don't know what to do anymore but I know one thing is I do not at all want to die.
Jul 2, 2016
Jul 2, 2016 at 7:28 PM UTC
you take my breath away
now i question
whether you are taking
it away to suffocate
me or for fun.
you leave marks on my
skin, that i thought
meant you loved me
but they are becoming
regular, bruises, scratches
bite marks.
now im lying here
semi conscious and fully
exposed thinking to
myself was this really
love or was this torture?
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 11:08 PM UTC
Dont let my heart
run away...
it will run into
danger...
AGAIN
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 11:07 PM UTC
this hurts so much and
i don't know why...
maybe it is because
you are leaving in august
or maybe it is because
she doesn't trust me
or maybe it is because
she said my parents are bad parents
or maybe it is because
she said i could've ruined your career
or maybe it is because
now i won't get to see you
or maybe it is because
i am too emotional
or maybe it is because
i do truly love you
and i do truly care about you
or maybe it is because
deep deep down i stupidly believed
some of the stuff she said
or maybe and this is the one
i really think it is
maybe it is because when you
called me back to make sure
i was okay that
i could hear that you had
been crying and that you
were trying hard not to
and that i could hear the pain and anger
and sadness in your voice
from what she had said
people say that what someone
says to you is just words and
what gives those words
power is you but i
don't think that is true
because if it was then i
wouldn't be feeling like this
and neither would you
May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 7:39 PM UTC
i scream
i cry
i hate myself
i yell
i scream
i tear at my skin
okay i get it,
you will never love me
cause no im
not her
im not pretty
or funny
or skinny
so this is why
i yell
and scream
and hate myself
because i know
ill never be her
and you will never love me
but i was hoping
just once to hear those
words
but what the **** was i
thinking
im sorry
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 9:04 PM UTC
its late and i know
you probably
wont get this untill
the morning.
but i have to tell you
ive always
wanted to tell you
how i felt
to have you
next to me in my bed
holding me tight
pressed close to my
body
but i didnt know how
but i felt
light having you
there
holding me
touching me
kissing me
but now thats all gone
but i wish it
wasnt
because i dont just
miss you
i miss your touch
May 23, 2016
May 23, 2016 at 9:04 PM UTC