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CleaveYou held me close, our bodies interlaced. I still remember that first touch, our first kiss, and how you ignited a flame in me I thought I’d lost. The ice came off in sheaths. Each time I frantically reached for the last of my shields, they melted through my fingers. Each word, each touch, each kiss - the shields dissipated. I felt myself submerged in emotions I had frozen long ago. I could not rebuild the walls I had relied on for so long. I could not refreeze the waters through which I am now, still, wading. / These waters no longer scare me. I was once terrified of their depth, worried I would drown in them or worse - I would lose you to their current. It wasn’t my own current I needed to fear - it was the one within you, the one I suspect still boils beneath the surface. / I wonder how and whether you continue to wage your war.