i found an old hoodie of yours in my dresser.
i promise i wont call.
Nov 30, 2025
Nov 30, 2025 at 5:06 PM UTC
We may not have matching tattoos,
or glimmering rings.
We may not have a creation of our own DNA,
or a law bound sacred oath.
But your name is etched upon my blood cells.
Our love, permanently scarred onto my skin.
The secrets I will carry, forever stuck in a thick layer.
The scar of you, I will always carry.
Nov 30, 2025
Nov 30, 2025 at 5:06 PM UTC
i miss you.
i miss the way your lip would twitch into a smile when the sky was just a bit prettier than normal.
i miss your smell lingering on my bedsheets after you left.
i miss the feeling of you hand intertwined with mine.
i miss hearing your voice on the other end of the line.
i miss the way you would talk yourself through confusing things.
i miss waking up and watching you smile at me.
i miss the feeling of your lips on my cheek.
i miss waking up with your arms around me.
i miss your little sister.
i miss watching you play video games and thinking "hes so cute when hes focused"
i miss listening to music with you, you always knew what to play.
i miss looking for groceries with you.
i miss giggling at 3 in the morning about stupid things that had no real meaning.
i miss sitting in parking lots at 5 am to talk.
i miss getting lunch with you and eating in comfortable silence.
i miss seeing your face light up.
i miss your voice.
i miss the late night drives to no where.
i miss going states over just to eat mcdonalds.
i miss being confused and having you explain it to me.
i miss the way you loved me.
i miss the way you missed me.
i miss you.
god i miss you.
i miss your bright blue eyes and the blush at the tips of your ears when i would tell you that your eyes were pretty.
i miss the way your hair would curl up against the base of your neck.
i miss the way you shoulders would curve inward when youre tired.
i miss the rise and fall of your chest.
i miss your scarred hands and tracing the tattoo on your arm.
i miss you.
i miss the dreams you nurtured in me.
i miss the warmth of your room.
i miss the beliefs we shared.
i miss the nickname you gave me.
i miss you,
forever and always.
Nov 30, 2025
Nov 30, 2025 at 5:00 PM UTC
I can’t help but think back to the times you would pull me against you while we slept.
A heap of love and sweat and familiarity.
An action of endless devotion, even in our subconscious.
There was something so soft about it,
so sweet.
Like the stars had come down to cradle me through dreams.
There was nothing that could hurt me in those moments.
Tangled up in you, softly snoring the night away.
I remember.
I remember.
I remember everything.
Oct 27, 2025
Oct 27, 2025 at 5:24 PM UTC
Someone walked past me the other day.
A simple looking man, one I did not know.
But he smelled like home.
Like tight hugs and whispered secrets.
Like late night pizza and medical show re-runs.
He smelled like you.
A mix of oil and freshly washed clothes.
A scent thats still stained into my mattress.
I almost fell to my knees at the mere thought.
My heart racing in my chest and my stomach flipping over.
Its hard to be without you,
when even the simplest of men can remind me of you.
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 11:26 PM UTC
You used to stare at me, unblinking.
I always hated it, Id ask you why you were looking at me like that over and over again.
Id try to figure out what insecurity of mine you were internally scrutinizing.
But your eyes would sparkle.
Theyd twinkle and glimmer underneath the low lighting of street lamps.
Theyd stare past all of the wrongs and look at everything else.
They would shimmer, at the mere thought of me.
I find myself wondering if theyd still do that
after all this time apart.
If those beautiful ocean blue eyes would still stay fixated on me.
If theyd sparkle.
I never thought I would miss someone staring at me this much.
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 11:22 PM UTC
The candles atop my cake sparkled tonight.
They listened carefully as my thoughts and prayers traveled through their wicks and turned into a heated blaze.
A burning thirst.
My whispered silence was suffocating.
The flames dwindling and flickering under the weight of it all.
The stifling burden of a birthday wish, that will go ungranted.
I piled my hopes and dreams onto those flickering flames.
Shoving my desire and longing into their wax, forcing it down.
I know it is bad luck to speak of your wishes after youve made them,
but tonight I will.
Deep within those candles and the smoke that followed,
there was a whispered prayer.
One for you.
One for us.
A wish for you to come back.
Oct 22, 2025
Oct 22, 2025 at 11:24 PM UTC
i hope my absence brings you the peace my love couldn’t.
Apr 10, 2024
Apr 10, 2024 at 7:27 PM UTC
the sun failed to shine that day.
the ruby red roses failed to bloom
the sun failed to cast dancing shadows upon the streets
the clouds deteriorated into nothingness.
everything changed the day you left me.
and the sun still fails to shine upon my tear stricken face
abandoning the lit up the memories stored away
of simple me.
Apr 29, 2021
Apr 29, 2021 at 2:34 PM UTC
oceans wash over me.
obliterating my sin,
purifying my soul,
making me clean.
they wash over me coming
one after the
other
after the
other.
washing away their hands,
their smile,
their voice.
washing away the peices of me that once belonged to them.
these oceans of mine will simply wash me away
Apr 29, 2021
Apr 29, 2021 at 2:34 PM UTC