A foggy winter morning
Obscures my point of view
With timeless memories,
With millions of possibilities,
Reminiscent of me and you:
Only our present is visible
With nary a clue where we are,
But I feel that everything was worth it,
We're the closest thing to perfect
That I've ever been (so far)
Dec 5, 2015
Dec 5, 2015 at 8:31 AM UTC
Sometimes
nothing is wrong,
but I still don't feel right.
Sometimes
the sun shines so beautifully through the Blue Beyond,
striking my window so tantalizingly,
but I can't feel its warmth.
Sometimes
I wake from a healthy slumber,
but find myself still without the strength to face the day
or even move
Sometimes, I forget to feel.
Sometimes, I unconsciously deny myself the right to live.
Sometimes happens too many times.
Apr 13, 2015
Apr 13, 2015 at 1:50 PM UTC
Don't you worry
I can get rid of those tears instantly
I can plaster a smile on my face
In the blink of an eye
But what I can't do
Is feel
Because after all these times
My emotions
Just don't work well anymore
So I pretend to feel
A rainbow of emotions
Especially now when I need them most
But all I can feel
Is dead inside
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 8:12 PM UTC
I'm poor, but
losing everything let me find You,
making me the richest person alive.
Apr 7, 2015
Apr 7, 2015 at 8:01 PM UTC
Very much too soon,
More than 1,500 miles will separate us.
It wasn't until I was finally saying goodbye
that I was scared to see you leave-
Because I realized that I no longer can protect you,
help you,
serve you,
hold you.
But I only wish the best for you and your new adventures-
wherever they may lead.
Now I have to release you
From my arms
Into the arms of the rest of the world.
The rest of the world only looks scary when I imagine you lost in it.
It can be cruel, harsh, unforgiving...
But I believe you can make it yours.
Very much too soon,
More than 1,500 miles will separate us.
Remember that I'll always be here for you.
Be free.
It's what you've needed all along.
And most importantly, BE YOURSELF.
Yourself is who I grew up learning to love.
Apr 1, 2015
Apr 1, 2015 at 2:24 PM UTC
Every time,
I always know that the peace will die
Soon
Right before my life destroys itself...
But the one thing I never know:
When
Mar 29, 2015
Mar 29, 2015 at 9:43 PM UTC
If ignorance is bliss,
Then why the hell does it make people sound so stupid?
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 10:15 PM UTC
Your green eyes
Watching the sun rise
In the orange skies
Crazy how fast the time flies
I try to peel away my gaze
But all I see is your face
Left in a summer daze
We’ll take our time, this love is not a race
“Let’s get out of here”
You’ll whisper in my ear
How about we run
To the California sun
Run away together
Put a sign on the door
Saying we’ve gone to better weather
And we don’t live here anymore
Maybe we’ll regret it a ton
But maybe we’ll have finally won
All we have to do is run
To the California sun
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 5:40 PM UTC
I tested the waters
Finding them satisfactory, I walked into the shower without reluctance
and stood, staring straight down at the drain, watching it all wash away.
Laughter, pain, remembrances, time spent
disappeared down that hole quicker than I would ever have imagined
or dreamed
or feared.
So as the water flowed over my open skin I didn’t even feel the pain
the stinging fire that burns for a few seconds, leaves, then returns
just like her.
I didn’t feel that stinging pain
I was already numb by then
just like I always am.
Then I noticed the water flowing down my face, it reminded me of tears
and how long it’s been since I’ve used them.
I was never really good at crying
my childhood robbed me of that
this simulation of tears is all I get.
Then, I realized
just like I do everyday
It’s a good thing she hates me too
like she always has
with so much love.
But it makes me stand in the shower for another forty-five minutes
as I scream silently
as loud as I can without opening my mouth.
How could you just give up?
Was I never enough?
I simply remained, wishing with all my might
that this shower would be my brief respite.
Please, just wash all of our memories away
I continued to plead
allthewhile knowing that it would be impossible for me
and that I’ll alway be here
helpless
for whenever you need me again
Aug 10, 2014
Aug 10, 2014 at 5:34 AM UTC
I've told you time and time again
Not to run from your fear
Every time it catches up to you
(It always does, eventually)
You're so tired from all that running
And one day you'll be too tired to fight
May 11, 2014
May 11, 2014 at 7:19 PM UTC