will you be there
will stay by my side
even when i lose my mind ?
will you love me
will you be there
even when i lose my mind ?
when i scream
and cry
and overreact
will you still be there
when i lose my mind
Feb 10, 2020
Feb 10, 2020 at 9:27 PM UTC
I used to say
Every little thing
On my mind
I used to say
What I felt
When I felt it
And when I did
I was happy
But just for a moment
Until he tore me down
Until he said I was
“Crazy”
Until he accused me
Of being the one doing
Wrong
So when you say
Hurtful things
I know better
And when my heart races
Because I’m nervous
And scared
I just say I’m fine
Because otherwise
I am insecure
I am jealous
I am overthinking
I am too much
I am crazy
All I am is scared
Of losing you
And of losing myself
Too
Sep 2, 2019
Sep 2, 2019 at 11:20 PM UTC
Scars of past loves
Have led me here
Into your arms
And I can’t help
But look over your shoulder
As I love you
And I can’t help
But read between the lines
As I talk to you
And I can’t help
But think too hard about it all
As I try to fall asleep
Next to you
Scars
Burns
Tricks
They haunt me like no tomorrow
And I don’t want to seem “crazy”
I don’t want to seem like “too much”
All I want is to be enough.
Aug 25, 2019
Aug 25, 2019 at 9:57 PM UTC
Nagging feelings
Persistent thoughts
“Will it last?”
These feelings, these thoughts
Are met with a sly grin
In the back of my mind
Thoughts of your smile
Your arms, wrapped around me
Your delicate kiss
Your wet legs in bed right after you shower
Your awkward, adorable playfulness
Your face when you said “I think I love you”
The nagging feelings
The persistent thoughts
Mean nothing
Jun 20, 2019
Jun 20, 2019 at 1:58 AM UTC
The spark
In that first kiss
We thought was heat
Of the moment
Of that sweaty July day
The giggles
When we undressed
We thought was the pressure
Of the moment
Of that decision
The pleasure
Of our actions
We thought was fleeting
Only present then
In those few hours
The sounds
Of our happiness
We thought was exclusive
Of that day
Of that arrangement
But months later
We are here
The spark
The giggles
The pleasure
The sounds
The idea we had
Became more than we could imagine
Not what we planned
Not what we were looking for
But so much more
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 11:49 PM UTC
I had an idea
A goal
A plan
In mind
I knew what I wanted
And I came to get it
But I never expected this
Your smile
So calming
Your words
So nice
Your manners
So polite
Your plan
Was the same as mine
But you didn’t expect this
My laugh
My feelings
My thoughts
Neither of us
Expected this
But seven months later
We have a lot more than we could have asked for
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 11:42 PM UTC
You
You are the reason
The reason I clench the pepper spray in my purse
As I walk by the man with the kind eyes
At night
You are the reason
I hold my car keys
Between my fingers
When I’m alone
You are the reason
I know kind eyes
Can also mean
Lies
And deceit
And hurt
You are the reason
You did this to me.
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 11:31 PM UTC
There
My back
Pressed hard
The hard plastic
Digging into my skin
Agonizing pain on more
Agonizing pain
I try to flashback
Just to convince myself
It didn’t happen
But I remember so little
Just the cries
And the drinks
And the pain
i trusted you
I opened up to you
And you ruined me
You took what you wanted
You did as you pleased
And then you pinned it all on me
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 11:26 PM UTC
Without losing you
I never would have arrived here
Where were you?
When my world went crashing down
And I thought my life was over
She says I was mean to you
And that you don’t tell the whole truth
And obviously you don’t
Because than she would know
All the times you hurt
Cheated
Lied
But those days are in the past
And without them,
We never could have arrived so
Wondrously
Here.
Sep 25, 2018
Sep 25, 2018 at 9:59 PM UTC
broken and
shattered on the floor
worried
you don’t want
this anymore
i love you
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 10:42 PM UTC