Sleepless_Nights2001Whisper

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My lifeThere was a time were there was a girl who wanted things but couldn't explain why. She was confused and depressed all the time and her body kept changing. Her parents never excepted who she has decided to become, so when she grew up it was hard to tell others who she now is. I am that girl. I wanted everything. / As I continue to grow up I learn new things. I have gone through so many different changes that sometimes I get very confused. I have been in many different relationships and most have not been healthy. There were a few different relationships that were good but I messed up by leaving. But there is only one person I can actually say I would get back with. He was the first person I can actually say was the first ZI ever loved and I know if he ever asked me back out I would leave the person I was with for him. / I'm in a program because apparently im too much to handle for my parents. Sometimes I feel neglected but i know i'm not. There are alot of people that are there for me even if it's not my parents. I am a very bubbly person. It hurts me ever more than a normal person will hurt when I get upset because depression makes everything worse than a normal person might feel. I say might because who really know what or how others feel. Somedays I wish I wasn't alive but then I think there would be no way anyone can see the world without them in it because what if the world didn't exist.
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Rapedtrusted but got used, / let him in. / thought he was a good guy,
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FeelingsDo you ever just feel like you like too many people, / that you are going to get judged. / its okay i know the feeling,
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Merry Christmasthere is no snow on the ground but who cares its Christmas, Merry Christmas.
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Resting PlaceI lay here, / Its so peaceful and quiet. / It gets me to smile,
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Letting him hurt mecalled him twice, / answered once. / cried a bunch,
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Racing to the Finnish linegrab your horse and go, / when i say jump you jump. / when i say go you run,
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Without You and MeWhy do you always yell, / Do you know sorry isn't enough. / All i think of is my mistakes,
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Save Mei'm going under, / falling deeper as i go. / i'm screaming for help,
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Who you gonna loveGonna love me, / or her. / this ain't a game,
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