I miss you
I miss living with you
I miss stealing your music
I miss sharing a room with you
I miss waking you up with coffee
I miss talking until our eyes gave up
I miss how calm you made the house feel
I often reminisce,
Getting lost in conversation, losing track of time
Our conversations ranging from deep talks to the silliest of things
Laughter echoes in the halls of my mind of these times
All of my greatest memories include you and i wouldn't have it any other way
You are my biggest inspiration
I'm so happy for you and proud of the future you've built for yourself
Growing up with you is the biggest privilege I have
You shaped me into the person I am today and I am forever grateful
I'm glad I have you
Mar 18
Mar 18, 2026 at 8:00 PM UTC
As i lay here,
you're the only thing on my mind.
Keeping me awake.
Running through my mind, as if its a race track.
I can never get you off my mind.
I wouldn't want to dream of it.
You are every song I've ever listened to.
Every lyric speaks you so clear and true.
There is no other word in my vocabulary that makes my mouth as tender as your name.
There is never a moment in which i do not adore you.
You are half my soul.
I reminisce our year.
I think of all we've done.
Oh how we've grown.
Not apart,
Only closer
No other being has ever stood so close to my soul as you stand.
There has never been another soul as pure as yours.
You've taught me so much,
I've learnt the best from the best.
You are perfection.
I wish you could look upon yourself through my eyes,
then you'd know how perfect you truly are.
And when i'm six feet under,
when the bugs are eating my brain and heart,
all they'll taste is you.
They'll taste all the love i have for you and they'll choke on its sweetness.
Mar 14
Mar 14, 2026 at 9:16 AM UTC
There is so much I want to tell you but I can't, I'm doing what you asked and writing everything down but it feels like a lot. I'm really scared of your reactions to everything, I don't want it to change your perception of me. I don't want you to see me any differently.
My past is heavy and I don't want you to carry it. I don't want to be a burden to you.
I've built my walls up so high out of fear. I am terrified of what will happen when you knock them down and demolish the whole lot.
Mar 12
Mar 12, 2026 at 12:13 PM UTC
I spent so long thinking being alone was the better option, as if it was something superior to company. Only now is it i realise i crave your closeness and your touch, your presence makes me feel like a dog with two tails. I will forever be grateful for every fraction of your time i am so lucky to be graced with. With you i feel whole, like you are an extension of myself. A reflection of oneself. A mirror of my soul.
Feb 20
Feb 20, 2026 at 7:56 PM UTC
You make the world stop
You make time speed up
I've never felt so safe
so wanted
so needed
so cared for
so known
so understood
so seen
so important
You make me feel heard
You show that you care in ways that matter
I've never felt so safe with another person
When i'm with you, nothing else matters
It's like my world is on pause
It's easy to say that when my whole world is in front of me
You're the first person who listens
not because they have to
instead, because they want to
I love that soft look you get in your beautiful eyes
the way your voice quiets close to a whisper
your eyes showing more care than pressure
like you understand
like you feel the very same way
even when you don't
You have never made me feel like a burden
you look upon me with such interest
like every word that exits my mouth is a miracle
You study me like the deepest of novels
like i'm history
you make me feel understood and seen in ways unbeknownst to me
Feb 19
Feb 19, 2026 at 5:24 PM UTC
There are times when i want to tell you everything
I build up the courage
It bubbles up my throat
It scratches and claws its way up
Until it gets caught in the net of my mouth
Stuck in my teeth like sour candy
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 2:04 PM UTC
The way his voice softens and sings sweet symphonies, making a point to my ears, forcing them to listen, as if he knows the words he says have been anything such as a whisper to my past, they reduce me to tears, proving that i cannot see it true.
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 11:28 AM UTC
I've always been scared of vulnerability, and i never understand or knew how to communicate my feelings. But, with you, i want to learn how, because you deserve to know how i feel.
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 11:24 AM UTC
It used to be constant but i got over it. It took a while, it didn't disappear, it couldn't. There were times when it was still there, just less of it. It was background noise, constantly lingering, a constant static that spoke up to whisper the vexatious thoughts that caused the debilitating feelings. It wasn't constant anymore.
I didn't feel pathetic nor panicked, not when walking, or talking or breathing or living. I thought it had left, packed up and gone for good. I thought it was temporary.
I didn't think it would be here.
There was even a period of time that it was fully gone. I could function. I could speak. I wasn't freezing up. I could hold conversations. I thought i was better. I could feel, speak, talk, and communicate. There wasn't an indefinite debilitating silence.
Then it came back. Not quietly creeping in. No. It couldn't be so kind.
It was like the floor opened from under me and swallowed me whole.
I'm back in that black hole.
Maybe i never left.
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 11:12 AM UTC