Lees-literature-laptop
19/Gender Fluid/USA
Hello, I am Lee or Lia and I use any pronouns. I am autistic & LGBTQ+, if you can't respect that please DNI. / / I often write and share to express what I'm currently going through, so be aware I do write on some sensitive topics sometimes
TW; childhood medical trauma/abuse
it was blue,
the upright table with straps
was that scratchy leather, blue
Blue sky window to my right
drugged up so I couldn't fight
red hot fire poker in my mouth,
beautifully capped teeth
but the branded red spot was still there
and it had stung my mouth for weeks
Feb 1
Feb 1, 2026 at 2:34 AM UTC
I wanna go camping,
I wanna bring my lizard.
I wanna smoke tons of ****
As my joints swell in a blizzard.
I never want to explain myself,
To anyone ever again.
I want someone to truly need me,
To truly be my friend.
Feb 1
Feb 1, 2026 at 2:20 AM UTC
Today I saw six dead frozen mice
Dropped from the sky in a hurry
My girlfriend would like to see me dead
My organs all melting in slurry
My miserable, lazy, loud, invalid guts would make greatly.
A dinner for vultures who love and don’t hate me.
Jan 31
Jan 31, 2026 at 1:46 PM UTC
You put out but you give in
I’ll never enjoy the life I’m in
If I can’t learn to say my name
And what I want without shame
Jan 31
Jan 31, 2026 at 1:38 PM UTC
I fell in a pit
You bumped me into it
You offer me a rope
Then I get some hope
But it’s not long enough
And it’s burning and rough
And you aren’t willing to
Buy one that’s new
Dec 2, 2025
Dec 2, 2025 at 5:40 PM UTC
It’s not easy to be vulnerable,
When your armors welded on.
It’s not simple to calm your soul,
When your very existence is seen wrong.
Oct 1, 2025
Oct 1, 2025 at 2:16 AM UTC
My handwriting is too much
too curved and too formy
My names in a bunch
poor cursive just swirly
Aug 16, 2025
Aug 16, 2025 at 1:15 AM UTC
You can’t have your cake and eat it
Some things never break up like skulls
Why are animals less than a human isn’t
My small soul feels so dull
Aug 12, 2025
Aug 12, 2025 at 3:08 AM UTC
I wish you saw
The hell I've lived
The pain I feel daily
The way the drink feels
The way it makes me calm
The way the knife feels
Slicing the skin
The release
The only way I know
I cant call for help
All I get is disapproval
My parents disown
I make own family
To watch you
Work day night
Never see you
Kids cry for you
I can't work cuz they are ill
I try my hardest
But never good enough
In my eyes
Maybe in yours
But how can I ask for help
When you give so much
The drink doesn't work
As much anymore
The knife to blunt
Just marks
What can I do
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 6:19 PM UTC
If I could make every single word scar
I absolutely would
Nothing is stopping me from doing so
I absolutely could
Well if the noise is overwhelming me
I absolutely should
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 6:15 PM UTC