I wish you saw
The hell I've lived
The pain I feel daily
The way the drink feels
The way it makes me calm
The way the knife feels
Slicing the skin
The release
The only way I know
I cant call for help
All I get is disapproval
My parents disown
I make own family
To watch you
Work day night
Never see you
Kids cry for you
I can't work cuz they are ill
I try my hardest
But never good enough
In my eyes
Maybe in yours
But how can I ask for help
When you give so much
The drink doesn't work
As much anymore
The knife to blunt
Just marks
What can I do
Feb 20
Feb 20, 2026 at 7:24 PM UTC
I wish you saw
The hell I've lived
The pain I feel daily
The way the drink feels
The way it makes me calm
The way the knife feels
Slicing the skin
The release
The only way I know
I cant call for help
All I get is disapproval
My parents disown
I make own family
To watch you
Work day night
Never see you
Kids cry for you
I can't work cuz they are ill
I try my hardest
But never good enough
In my eyes
Maybe in yours
But how can I ask for help
When you give so much
The drink doesn't work
As much anymore
The knife to blunt
Just marks
What can I do
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 5:57 PM UTC
I think maybe shut off
Lay down
Then the beep beep goes
Can't switch off
Can't walk away
Can't sleep
When does it get easier
When does life stop being hard
One kid goes beep beep
One goes go away
One needs homework
One needs insulin
Scared everyday
Is the school gunna ring
Is the phone going off
Is the air getting thinner
Suffocating
Trying to keep sane
Jan 7, 2025
Jan 7, 2025 at 11:19 AM UTC
I hear
Beep beep beep
All day all night
I know every noise
Every meaning
I walk around
With 1000 eyes
Staring at me
Questions after questions
The *** she's diabetic
The poor thing
Oh did you pass it down
You know she'll never
Survive
Be normal
Enjoy life
Eat sweets
Words hurt so much
But she's a fighter
She's strong
She's amazing
She'll only know these words
Each day can be a battle
But She'll always have my hand
To help her through
Jan 7, 2025
Jan 7, 2025 at 11:15 AM UTC
I love you
I'd happily say I do
But lately I'm not so sure
You work
Come home
Sleep
While I've made 3 meals
Ran after kids
Sorted birthdays
Spent all my money
To make you smile
You come in pig crap
Dinner in 5 I call
You waste half
I feel defeated
All alone
Raising 2 kids with needs
Barley surviving
Scared ill break
But I can't
The kids need someone
Weekend comes
You moan the kids want to play
See you
Do something
You say I'm tired
I've done 50 hours this week
How do I fix something
Thats breaking
Very
Very
Slowly
Aug 1, 2024
Aug 1, 2024 at 4:51 PM UTC
Why just why
At 2 years old
Does the world fight you
Bring you down
Hurt you and betrays you
But still you smile
With every jab
You cry then jump
Right back up
You never let it hold you back
You know when it's not right
You know when your high
You come for help
No matter what
Whether is hitting or silence
I know
I got you forever
I will protect you
And teach you
You call I come running
You cry I check
You scream I check
This is normal now
This is life
You are a warrior
You are sting
Jun 22, 2024
Jun 22, 2024 at 6:41 PM UTC
You hurt my son
You think it's okay
That the ony way you can hurt me
But I ill protect him with my life
No matter what
He'll see the light
He'll see the truth
You won't have him forever
He remembers the past
He'll never forget
Screaming
Leave my mum alone
Stop hurting her
He may be blinded now
But soon the truth will come out
And you'll be all alone
Where you belong
No one to hold on to
When your drowning
In your self pity
Jun 22, 2024
Jun 22, 2024 at 6:35 PM UTC
I wish I had eyes in back of my head
I watch everything
I'm scared to leave
Scared to walk the street
What if a car hits me
What if someone don't like me
What if I leave house
What will happen
Did I leave the washing on
Did I leave the light on
Did i pay the bills
Did I get what I need
Will I have a breakdown
Will I turn to drink
Will I freak out
Will I survive the day
Can I cope today
Can I do my jobs today
Can I keep my family happy
Can I have a wash today
Do I have time to relax
Someday are harder
Someday it's calm
Someday I cry
Someday I can't move
Anxiety and mental health are real
They can't just be cured
Jan 26, 2023
Jan 26, 2023 at 6:09 PM UTC
Would you smile
Would you speak
Would you look
Would you think twice if she wasn't there
Would you smile
Would you show me love
Would you have lifted your hand
Would you have thrown me
Would you love me
Would you care
Would you take a second thought
Would you want me
If she was gone
Would you come back
Could I forgive
The abuse
The hurt
The bruises
The memories
I watch you
Fight the hurt
Fight the heartache
Fight the depression
Yet you stayed
While she pushed us away
Now your a stranger
You won't even look
Won't even smile
I just want my dad
The man
I looked upto
The dad
I loved
Adored
Treasured
The memories
They won't fade even if I try
The gigs
The laughs
Should i forget
Will you ever come back
Or should I feel
Deserted
Alone
Jan 26, 2023
Jan 26, 2023 at 5:50 PM UTC
I want to cry
I want to scream
Yet I have to hide
How I truly feel
Hearing the words
Your kids need you
Your kids need you happy
You can't cry
You can't give in
What if its too much
What if I can't breathe
Can't think
Can't survive feeling like this
What if
Feb 20, 2022
Feb 20, 2022 at 5:47 PM UTC