I used to say you should live your life a movie you would want to watch.

I see now that its never been one film though.

Its so many different films with sequels and prequels and interwoven storylines in the same big universe.

The protagonist in some is the antagonist in others, the dramatic irony of all the differing perspectives.

Some of the scenes can get pretty ugly, and some are so beautiful you can't quite wrap your head around them.

Some you'll never fully understand, some of the ones you see and never think twice about will be some of the most significant.

The bloopers remind you its not always so serious, and that even when things don't go according to plan, good can come from them.

These films won't be nominated for any awards, or be met with any standing ovations.

They won't go down in history as classics,
They won't make any must watch lists,
But I swear, once you start watching, you won't be able to look away.

Its funny sometimes ill go days without really hurting,

I'll get really comfortable and stop being cautious

When randomly a pang shoots accross my chest,

And im gentl reminded how shoddily I've taped all the pieces back together.

I keep having dreams,
where I tell you everything,
I should've back then,

And every last word,
Uttered From my bleeding tongue,
Feels like sweet release,

The look on your face,
When you have to choose between,
Having and eating,

There are still some pieces of me that I never found from when I broke.
I'm pretty sure they got lost in the move.
I've since replaced some, and the picture is slowly coming back together.
Its nice to put the puzzle together at my own pace.
Each new piece I fit into those old cheap cardboard spaces makes the process feel so worthwhile.
Sometimes I scrape my knees in search of them.
Sometimes I dig so deep for them I bleed from the edges of my fingernails.
But I think in the end, that's the cost of living.