My mind is like a battle field
but
the only person there
is
ME, MYSELF, and I
when you are in battle with yourself
there will never be a compromise
or
a winner of the battle

Holidays are hard when there is a big whole in the family
Its hard
when I don't see your face in the crowded kitchen
Its hard
when I don't hear your voice or laugh in the chaos in the house
Its hard
when I don't see your face smiling back at me from across the room
Its hard
Missing you when I can't tell you!

I have been invisible my whole life
I was always the wired quiet girl
no one tried to get to know
Always feeling alone
and not wanted

Its the little things
that make me happy
like the sunset
The night sky
and all the
little moments with
the people I
LOVE

Kindness
Is a simple concept
and yet it
is foreign
to many
people
in this
WORLD

When you are felling
down
surround yourself
with the people
who will
lift your spirits
and will be
by your side
no matter what

Most days
I feel
like a puzzle piece
That was put in the wrong box
No matter how hard
I try to fit in
I will never
Fit in with the other
Pieces

No matter how many times
I put myself back together
people tend to come
around and shatter me
Again

It may seem like this darkness
Will never end
But it will
just like the night
The darkness will pass
And it will soon turn into
Daylight

Why am I
So HARD to love
Am I not enough
For someone to love
Why can't he see what
Is right in
Front of him
I have been trying
To make him notice
Me
Am I not like the
Other girls you talk to
Am I not as pretty as them
Then I realized
Why am I
Beating myself up over him
It is his loss I am
A beautiful and amazing person
And if he doesn't see that
He doesn't deserve me

I seem to be fine
But in reality
I am dying inside
I hide behind a mask to cover the real me
People believe
I am this bubbly happy girl
But behind my mask
I am
Depressed
and
Insecure

They say
parents are there for you
where were they
when I needed them
I was hurting
I was screaming for help
They didn't hear
I have become numb
To the pain
I have given up

You brought light into my world
I loved you
Why did you have to leave me
In this cruel world
The day you left
Darkness fell upon my world
Why did you do it
Was I not enough for you
I thought you were happy
I was there for you
I asked myself these questions
As I laid there in tears

you left us with so many question like
why did you do it
why did you have to leave us
we didn't know you were in pain
you yelled out for help but we didn't hear you
I am sorry we didn't hear you in time
now we have lost you forever