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Victoria Newman Oct 2010
I know it’s over
I know you’re gone
But somehow I’m satisfied
Because this wasn’t wrong
You chose the right choice
And I did too
Becoming apart was the best thing to do.

I’m so glad you know what you want
It’s better than being together and living a lie
Because now all your feelings
Aren’t locked up inside
Your soul like a complex chest
Now you’ve unlocked it
Now you can rest.

You tell me you’re sorry
And honestly, it’s okay
Because I’m always with you
Each and every day
You tell me you’re confused
How you miss me so
And then you say
‘I made a mistake, you know.’

I’m so glad you know what you want
It’s better than being together and living a lie
Because now all your feelings
Aren’t locked up inside
Your soul like a complex chest
Now you’ve unlocked it
Now you can rest.

I tell you I’m sorry
But I don’t know what for
I’m so confused now
You say you want more
Of what you killed
Got rid of just hours before
Are you kidding me?
I thought you wanted to be free.

I’m so glad you know what you want
It’s better than being together and living a lie
Because now all your feelings
Aren’t locked up inside
Your soul like a complex chest
Now you’ve unlocked it
Now you can rest.




I’m so glad
That you’re really thinking
I’m so glad
You know what you’re missing
I’m so glad
You’ve seen both sides
I’m so glad
That again, you’re mine.

You’re mine, I’m yours
No more tiptoeing
On wooden floors
I’m yours, you’re mine
Hopefully for a very long time.
Victoria Newman Oct 2010
It’s hard to say why
I cry myself to sleep at night
When I’m left wondering why
You and I just aren’t alright
It’s hard to say why
I die a little when you walk away
I think I’m just
I think I’m just afraid.

I’m afraid you’ll forget me
When you’re in your pit
I’m afraid you’ll hurt me
I’m afraid you’ll get tired of it
The concept of us
I’m afraid that I
Won’t be able to trust
You.

I’ve lost count how many times
You’ve made me die, you’ve made me cry
And you just don’t realise
What the meanings are behind my sighs
And you just don’t realise
Why I’ve had to resort to lies
I think I’m just
I think I‘m just afraid.

I’m afraid you’ll forget me
When you’re in your pit
I’m afraid you’ll hurt me
I’m afraid you’ll get tired of it
The concept of us
I’m afraid that I
Won’t be able to trust
You.

I’m forced to hide
Behind this fake smile
To make you think
I’ve not run a mile
I’m forced to believe
That you still love me
When in fact I believe
That you really can’t see
What’s really killing me
Or is it just my mind playing tricks
On me?

I’m afraid you’ll forget me
When you’re in your pit
I’m afraid you’ll hurt me
I’m afraid you’ll get tired of it
The concept of us
I’m afraid that I
Won’t be able to trust
You.

I’m afraid you’ll let me go
Yes, that time will come, I know
But please delay it as long as you can
Because I know I can.
Victoria Newman Oct 2010
Stabbing pains in my chest
I ache when you’re not around
My world’s a bit empty
When you’re nowhere to be found
My actions merge together
My hours roll into days alone
I think about you constantly
In my head you are sewn
So tightly and so much
I need to see you now
Even if it’s only a tender touch
A soft kiss, a loving stare
To name but a few.

No feeling is permanent
No emotion is forever
So I know soon I’ll be happy again
When we are, when we’re together
I appreciate my feelings of loneliness
Because I know they won’t be forever.

The times I can’t cope
The days when I’m all alone
They show promise, they show hope
I’ll see you soon, that I know
So really, time apart makes me realise
It makes me wonder
It’s true that absence makes the heart grow fonder
For that, I am glad, for that, I appreciate
I guess now when we’re apart
I know I just have to wait
With your presence only in my heart.

No feeling is permanent
No emotion is forever
So I know soon I’ll be happy again
When we are, when we’re together
I appreciate my feelings of loneliness
Because I know they won’t be forever.

I appreciate that we were once friends
I appreciate that now we’re more
Because it’s worked out great in the end
Your soul, yourself is what I saw
I appreciate, too, that you feel the same
My soul, myself is what you saw again.

No feeling is permanent
No emotion is forever
So I know soon I’ll be happy again
When we are, when we’re together
I appreciate my feelings of loneliness
Because I know they won’t be forever.
Victoria Newman Oct 2010
I was enraged to find
You’ve moved on with your life
I felt angry and hurt
That you’d found yourself another girl
It’s been not yet a fortnight
I wish I could pick a fight
But then you’d realise
I’ve snuck past enemy lines.

I feel glad we’re moving on
But bad that our times are gone
But forwards is the way to go
Now I just want you to know
I’m quite very sorry
That hypocrisy thy name… is me.

I try not to think about
The good times – it wears me out
I know I shouldn’t feel bad
That I’m over you and the feelings we had
Will soon be forgotten
The memories will fade and be gone.

I feel glad we’re moving on
But bad that our times are gone
But forwards is the way to go
Now I just want you to know
I’m quite very sorry
That hypocrisy thy name… is me.

I thought you were ‘The One’
But now our time has been and gone
I’m smiling and I’m not sure why
Is it because I’m moving on with my life?
Or is it because the things that happened
Were amazing before the end?

I feel glad we’re moving on
But bad that our times are gone
But forwards is the way to go
Now I just want you to know
I’m quite very sorry
That hypocrisy thy name… is me.

I’m sorry that this is it
I’m just a ****** hypocrite
But nobody’s perfect
And neither were we
Now we can just let things be
Even if hypocrisy thy name… is me.
Victoria Newman Oct 2010
I know we’ve been through our rough patches
And I know we’ve hit our rocky parts
But we’ve sewn up our cuts with stitches
And they’re stitched tight into our hearts.

We’ve got to the part that’s paradise
Which has been my goal all along
To cuddle and to kiss you and all things nice
Which I could do all day long.

You mean so much to me
When I’m with you I can plainly see
Why I’m with you, why I care
Because being without you is too hard to bear
I need your arms I need your embrace
A world without them is a world I can’t face
And a world without me and you
Would be a world without me too.

I never thought we’d be here, me and you
I was oblivious; I was blind to see what was right in front of me
I’m guessing you felt the same, I’m guessing you thought that too
You didn’t think that a relationship would be what you find.

You mean so much to me
When I’m with you I can plainly see
Why I’m with you, why I care
Because being without you is too hard to bear
I need your arms I need your embrace
A world without them is a world I can’t face
And a world without me and you
Would be a world without me too.

Now were better than ever, better than before
I could be with you; I can be around you all day every day
To look into your eyes I would be lost for evermore
And I’d try to communicate – forever, forever with me you’ll stay.

You mean so much to me
When I’m with you I can plainly see
Why I’m with you, why I care
Because being without you is too hard to bear
I need your arms I need your embrace
A world without them is a world I can’t face
And a world without me and you
Would be a world without me too.
Victoria Newman Oct 2010
The drawings on your walls
Can say a thousand words
Your ups and downs
Your rise, your falls
Sometimes they tell me things
Sometimes they shout
‘What are you doing?
Look out, look out, look out.’

A thousand words is not enough
A thousand screams right in my direction
A thousand reasons under inspection
Can’t change my mind
A thousand voices inside my head
A thousand feelings here and there
A thousand consciences
Too hard to bare
Can’t tell me to find
A reason to leave you behind.

The scrawls on your paper
Read a thousand lines
A place much safer
I need to find
Sometimes they talk to me
Sometimes they scream
‘Remember, remember,
Things aren’t always what they seem.’

A thousand words is not enough
A thousand screams right in my direction
A thousand reasons under inspection
Can’t change my mind
A thousand voices inside my head
A thousand feelings here and there
A thousand consciences
Too hard to bare
Can’t tell me to find
A reason to leave you behind.

A thousand reasons to leave
One reason to stay
A thousand reasons to go
One reason to stay
A thousand reasons to run
One reason to stay
I think you can guess that one.
Victoria Newman Oct 2010
It seems that only in sadness
Can I truly confess
All my feelings of love, hate and fear
Because all I want is someone to hear
What I think, what I know
And all I want is a place to go
A peaceful sanctuary inside my head
Of words that aren’t always easily said.

A good song should be a diary in rhyme
For when you’ve so much emotion
You have to spill it onto lines
A good song should be told right from the heart
No more, no less
A good song should be written for passion
And not to impress
A good song should be the truth and nothing but…
A good song should be the words and feelings
You get in your gut.

I know when I need to talk in confidence
My pen and paper break my silence
I could write for hours, hours on end
I don’t need hugs or candy to mend
My broken heart, instead I always know
My pen and paper love me so
Then perhaps, maybe one day
Someone will love my songs, or so they say.

A good song should be a diary in rhyme
For when you’ve so much emotion
You have to spill it onto lines
A good song should be told right from the heart
No more, no less
A good song should be written for passion
And not to impress
A good song should be the truth and nothing but…
A good song should be the words and feelings
You get in your gut.

A song is a way to say
The words in my head in a different way
A song is my inside mind
Filled out across every line
I appreciate that they will never leave me
And I hope they will never let me be
Alone when I need a friend
Or a good song that can easily mend.

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