With an ounce of tears and a pinch of regret
I sat on the steps and I bowed my head
And all of the things I hadn't said yet
Ran through my mind til my cheeks were wet

Sorrows and butterflies flew through my heart
Pushing at the seams til I fell apart
I have yet to end but I have no place to start
This is life's foolish movie, and I have no part

A few graceful steps, my eyes only stared
What I could've said, if I only dared
My gift was my curse, silence 'cause I cared
My heart left in pieces, feelings undeclared

With a new vow of silence and years of remorse
I rise from the steps as you open the doors
And I never once look, though it requires much force
Knowing there’s pain in your eyes, and I am the source

I hear my name called and choose not to reply
It hurts to ignore, but hurts more to know why
If this is my truth, then I’d rather lie
As cheers ring around me, I leave you behind

I’d ask for forgiveness, you would just shake your head
Without life, I must now live like the dead
With the one of your choosing you are eternally wed
Some other now stands, where I once stood instead

Black Heart
Ice cold
Territorial
So bold
Fall hard
Beat fast
Terrified
Won't last
Not clear
So blind
Yet, loud
Should find
Confused
And hurt
Black Heart
Don't burn

As I lay me down to sleep
I pray for miles of endless dreams
Catch the colors in your hands
Take me on journeys to far away lands

Sing me lyrics that have no words
Let us soar in skies without any birds
Tell me your secrets, I'll tell you mine
As we pass backwards and forwards and sideways in time

Bring me some flowers that will never die
Tell me no truths, show only lies
So when I awaken, my real life will seem
More dreary and bleak, 'til I return to the dream

I hate you
I hate everything about you
From the way you laugh
To your charming smile
I hate the sound of your voice
And how you can say anything to me
And I’ll fall to pieces before you
I hate the way you look at me
I hate your eyes
I hate your thoughtfulness,
And how you’re always one step ahead of me
I hate how you know me
And how you learn me
Just by watching
I hate how you make me feel
How you make me think
How you make me act
I hate how I never know what to do
I hate being unprepared
I hate you
…I hate you

This house is not a home anymore
It’s unlocked every window and opened every door
Thieves and villains enter in the night
Searching every nook and cranny for some hint of light

The sun comes up and it keeps them at bay
The doors are locked and it keeps them away
Unfortunately the damage has begin
But nobody can tell, if they’re a stranger looking in

Fake garden grass and a newly planted tree
May fool the neighbors but it sure ain’t fooling me
Fresh new paint hides the beat up coat beneath
New locks on windows, a trespassing sign at my feet

You can hide the battle scars but new wounds bleed a lot
Some broken furniture and an over boiling ***
Don’t draw the shades on me now or the curtains on me yet
We’ll get you all cleaned up, clear that fog from your head

I cannot fly if you tie down my wings,
And then push me over the edge.

I cannot sing if you make me scream,
So loud I lose my voice.

I cannot listen if you do not speak,
And expect me to do as I’m told.

I cannot play if you lock me up,
Then forget I even exist.

I cannot live if you make it difficult,
And if I do not have a reason.

I cannot smile if you do not make me,
Why would I if I am not happy?

I cannot laugh if you do not let me,
Because then I have done something wrong.

I cannot trust if you do not teach me,
So teach me, but be patient.

I cannot love when your heart is closed,
So love me, and let me love you.

Maybe then I will no longer say I cannot,
But instead, I know I can.

Won’t you smile for me?
Laugh with my laugh again,
Let me know where I belong,
Sing until I fall asleep,
Hold me in your arms?

Won’t you smile for me?
Wipe the tears I cry,
Off my face and say,
Everything is fine,
And you’ll never leave me?

Won’t you smile for me?
Make the silent birds sing,
Make the dying flowers grow,
Let the river’s water flow,
Let the sun shine freely?

Won’t you smile for me?
Tightly hold me to you,
Don’t ever let me go,
Tuck my hair behind my ear,
Place a kiss on my cheek?

Won’t you smile for me?
Lighten up my day,
Comfort me when I’m down,
Remember what to say,
And never forget me?

Won’t you smile for me?