Somewhere candlelight plays as two lovers dance
someone lights a few for a love anew or one gone askew
someone is taking a chance on a branch,
with a lit candle and poem just for you.

Somewhere someone closes their eyes
radiating love, bursting at the seams!
Somewhere someone's curiosity peeks and pries,
and hides inside your most precious dreams

Somewhere someone's hand needs yours,
longing for you in every way.
Somewhere new love has begun its course.
Somewhere someone prays you won't go away.

If you’ll take my hand now, we’ll go far
If you’ll take a chance now, and show me who you are
I will love you more than you could possibly see
If you can see yourself standing next to me

I’ll watch over you like a star above
keep you afloat on treacherous seas
Oh yes, I’ve so fallen in love . . .

I long to create worlds with you.
You dumb my tongue.

I am yours to tame,  stand by you,
wash away all of your tears,
and beat up all your fears

This is me at my most vulnerable,
wishing to hold your hand for the rest of my years.

Today is the saddest day of my life.
Sad because, I have lost my sense of smell.
Her scent will no longer tease my nose toward her,
I will never smell perfume, sweat, or ***
flowering aromatic recall - the strongest recall of memory is lost.
Soon, like puddles in the hot sun, she will begin to dissipate.

Today is the saddest day of my life.
Sad because, I have forgotten how to see.
The sweet beautiful curves in her face,
her smile, her brilliant body, her great bright eyes,
if only I had made the time to memorize it.

Today is the saddest day of my life.
Sad because, my tongue has gone dumb.
Chocolates and ash, all tastes the same.
I no longer want to eat,
it all tastes of grey.
Never again will taste her lips or her tears.
I will never say, I love you again.

Today is the saddest day of my life.
Sad because, my ears can no longer find sound.
I will never be comforted by her sweet calls or pet names.
Music will no longer touch my heart.
No one will ever yell at me or sing to me.
I will never hear, "I love you" again.

Today is the saddest day of my life.
Sad because, today, I have lost my ability to feel.
I will never be hugged close and snuggled.
She will never kiss me under mistletoe or on new years, or ever at all.
I will never make love again, feel her silky skin against mine, or an ******* release.
Fire cannot warm my soul anymore.
And nothing will cool the burning in my head.

I am blind, deaf, and dumb.  I hear nothing.  I feel nothing.  I am numb.

Trees weep for their fallen leaves
laying on bracken and brush
slowly decaying and decomposing
back to the earth from whence they came

A birch whose limbs hang low
aware of the pleasure they once brought to swinging children
that now stands still
and awaits the next winter’s
icy chill

Bright grass kisses the sun and broken marble shys
Teasing the past to summon old cries
Where summer dies and stars no longer seen
Appearing in mud and everything unclean

Simple waves tease rocky shores
To wash away, all the world ignores
Weathered seams and broken dreams
Old Polaroids fade to nothing under sharp sun beams

This is the story that no parent told
These are the truths that freeze the soul cold
Cherish the memories, memorize what they show
Live in the moment, and let the rest go

In the space in the middle,
I watch her sleep.
So imperfect . . . yet perfect for me
Watching her chest raise and lower as she dreams and counts sheep.

My world has turned upside down and inside out.
All my wants, my wishes and fantasies infuse
A bright new body
My heart unconsciously adds her to my most favorite dreams

My soul knows now, it cannot live without her,

I do not want to fall asleep,
What if she were to wake,
and I missed her even for a moment.
Stranded in the place in the middle.

I dream my place beside her
in her field of red
Sitting amongst the stones.
Slipping away from myself.

Tomorrow, she will be gone.
She will not return.

Paralyzed, I watch her wake,
She speaks in tongues that lap at my face,
All I want to do is hold on to her
Keep her with me for just one more day.

But I cannot wake up, and I am not quite asleep
Stranded somewhere
in the space in the middle:
where dreams come to be born or to die.

Dry and clinging to the walls of my empty suspicion
I crawl without moving
And move towards the hollow calls of foolish lies,

Whose meat feeds my need to feel numb,
Dumb and distracted,
I repeatedly re-enact the play that is my life,
A satire of piecemealing the whole,
Living on the gratification of stealing being,
Not certain of actual feeling
Persisting as a pretend order amongst the chaos
That permeates the holes within the hollow
Constantly doubting.

Scraping and scarring the cold surface
I’ve molded to seal my fading warmth
Within the progressive advances of a lost purgatory unseen.

She derails me.  
breathtaking, magnificent, tongue dumb
words fail and sense blurs

punch drunk love fear.
an unfamiliar juggernaut
on a collision course with sanity, confidence, self worth
unfamiliar, unwarranted doubt.

Paralyzed dumb,
I have no explanation.
Nothing taints a true childlike expression
I stray into unattainable delusion.
expectations, trailing tangents, delineation.  

Peacocking:  false representation of self.  
Benevolent intention falls victim to accelerated dissonance
Nano lies upon nano lies build a plastic truth

Why am I doing this, and why can't I stop?
She would have loved the real me..
The tongue tied, school boy all awkward and sweet
Do I go for a kiss or just throw rocks?

Oh well, she's gone now.
The fake plastic boy scared her away.