know this
distance doesn't matter
time doesn't matter
situation doesn't matter
when you need a shoulder to cry on
or even someone to keep you going
i will be there

i have a shirt that smells like you
i still taste you on my tounge
but after what you did
and what you put me through
the once pleasurable sensations
have become nausiating to think about

im so done trying
to be the person you want
to be there for you
to be your friend
i am done

im newly single today
newly confused
newly hurt
newly lost

but im also
newly
free

Even with distance I know you are smiling
Even through the pain
Even though I am not around
I am with you
I always will be for the simple fact
You are my very best friend
And I love you
I know you are strong
I know you are intelligent
And you'll find a way to get though
Any challenge, any war
And I want you to know
You aren't fighting alone.

I figured
I'm going to stop
messaging you first
because I know
if I wasn't saying "hi"
we wouldn't be talking

I want to tell you so much
but I know I'm just a side character in your main story
and I don't mean as much to you
as I really hope I do