Your tired little smiles
and laughs that live a half-life
before blossoming into sighs.
Your spontaneous songs,
sourly smacking notes
from your brain.
Your insane babblings
that whisper sweetly to me.
Your goose-like honk,
signaling the fast approach
of sleep.
Your utterly annoying
playful shrugs.
That's the **** I'll miss...

A friend whose light far exceeds any other.
Two whose world is illuminated by that light.
What would it take to light my darkness?
What cost?
He grasps Light's hand and pulls in for an embrace.
I watch, happily hurt.
A smile simply stinging my face.
Their kiss pushes the knife deeper into my chest.
You deserve to be happy, even if I'm consigned to this fate.

It's dark outside...
Inside it's worse.
Being without you is rough.
Knowing it's my fault is worse.
Losing all hope in myself
Over things I can't change.
That's bad.
Imagining living one more day
Feeling like I do now...
****...
That's the worst.

I drink in your lies with a desperate smile.
They taste like false hope with a hint of denial.
Though you lured me in like so many before,
I should've grabbed a menu as I sauntered through the door.
I took a seat at the nearest table, and ordered the special.
My waiter, however, brought me nothing more than the usual.
Guess he won't be getting a tip...

Here's to the bittersweet messages
And tear-stained eyes.
Here's to the town...and new "College Guys"
Here's to the moments that I can't replace.
Here's to the liar with a beautiful face.
Here's to the broken heart, God knows he needs it.
Here's to the fact you didn't give a sh*t.

You and I...
We connected.
To feel like this about
someone I just met,
It's absurd.
Unheard of, no,
But strange nonetheless.
It's like staring at a star
And claiming it's yours.
I've been through hell,
Seen a great many things,
But none so mesmerizing as you.
You're a crystal chandelier
In a dimly lit room.
I am your night sky.
You are my star.

Ha,
I was told we would be a good couple.
Weird, isn't it?
I couldn't see it happening,
But maybe you could...
It would be kinda alien to be cared about.
Especially by you.
If you want, though...
I could keep an open mind.