AS I SIT HERE WAITING

VERSE 1:
As I sit here waiting
I wonder what’s on your mind,
As I sit here waiting
I am saddened because this friendship was so hard to find.

As I sit here waiting
I often think of you,
As I sit here waiting
I think back to all the fun times we had shared-that now make me feel blue.

As I sit here waiting
My mind keeps thinking of your name,
As I sit here waiting
Things just don’t feel the same.

As I sit here waiting
I wonder if you are well.
As I sit here waiting
I’m surprised –that I’ve been put under this kind of spell.

As I sit here waiting
I am trying my best to forget about you,
As I sit here waiting
I wonder –how many things you said –that were true?...

As I sit here waiting
I am doing everything else I can-to erase you from my mind,
As I sit here waiting
I am feeling sad to have lost you, as you were so special and so kind.

As I sit here waiting
I can’t seem to get you out of my head,
As I sit here waiting
I try to forget all the nice things you said.


VERSE 2:
As I sit here waiting
Another day passes and I still can’t forget you yet,
As I sit here waiting
Yes, I am still trying to, trying to still forget.

As I sit here waiting
I try to read-to distract my mind,
As I sit here waiting
I wonder –was I really that blind.

As I sit here waiting
I listen to music – to try to block out your name from my head,
As I sit here waiting
I am still crying for your loss-before I go to bed.

As I sit here waiting
I talk to the person next to me-to distract my thoughts from you,
As I sit here waiting
I just don’t know what to do.

As I sit here waiting
Sadly-your name still comes to me-and I can’t stop thinking of you,
As I sit here waiting
I am still feeling blue.


VERSE 3:
As I sit here waiting
I wait for this to pass one day,
As I sit here waiting
I wonder why things didn’t go my way.

As I sit here waiting
I wonder what happened –for you-not to stay?
As I sit here waiting
I wonder –if you are okay?

As I sit here waiting
I feel a little lost –that you’re no longer by my side,
As I sit here waiting
I take this moment to swallow my pride.

As I sit here waiting
I can’t believe how much impact you had on me,
As I sit here waiting
I wonder if my heart –will ever become free.

As I sit here waiting
Each day becomes a little numb-with time,
As I sit here waiting
I am starting to become and feel fine.

As I sit here waiting
I pick up the pieces and slowly start again,
As I sit here waiting
I am feeling blessed to have so many amazing family and close friends.


VERSE 4:
As I sit here waiting
I suddenly catch myself –starting to smile,
As I sit here waiting
I realize your name hasn’t popped into my head for a while.

As I sit here waiting
I realize that I am becoming stronger,
As I sit here waiting
These thoughts disappear –longer and longer.

As I sit here waiting
Life becomes a lot easier –to find my way,
As I sit here waiting
Everything –slowly doesn’t matter so much- anymore and fades.

As I sit here waiting
My heart starts to feel free,
As I sit here waiting
I start thinking of all these things I can do/see –and what I can soon be.

As I sit here waiting
A smile comes to me,
As I sit here waiting
I dream of a new version of me-that I want to see.


VERSE 5:
As I sit here waiting
I am glad that life has put me in this new kind of position,
I start to plan/map out my new mission.

As I sit here waiting
I start to feel excited –of all the new things I can do myself,
I start to re think and create my own wealth.

As I sit here waiting
I start to enjoy more of today,
I am now loving –all the new things that have/are coming my way.

As I sit here waiting
I realize I am beginning to miss you less,
I have recently realized -to just work on me –to be my very best.

As I sit here waiting
I am happy to be where I am,
I smile –because I realize now-I have become my number 1 fan.

As I sit here waiting
I am no longer waiting for you,
I wish and prey –for all my future dreams –to come true.

As I sit here waiting
I welcome what life brings to me,
I can’t wait to see what my future –will be.

As I sit here waiting
I realize –I’m just waiting-for my next Mr right –to come to me now,
I wonder –when and how?

As I sit here waiting
-Just waiting.
Everything now is just a filler
-with time,
I realize now I am
-Just fine.

(C) By HF-Whisper
18/5/2020 20:45PM

waiting for you to notice
waiting for you to change
waiting for you to stop
waiting for you to go

waiting for you to wonder
waiting for you to care
waiting for you to say it
waiting for you to stand up

waiting for you to move
waiting for you to understand
waiting for you to let go
waiting for you to hold tighter

waiting for you to run away
waiting for you to finally cry
waiting for you to break down
waiting for you to smile

waiting for you to come around
waiting for you to decide
waiting for you to get out of the car
waiting for you to wrap around a tree

waiting for you to sit down
waiting for you to throw it out the window
waiting for you to lay it out on the table
waiting for you to move away

waiting for you to get another drink
waiting for you to fall to pieces
waiting for you to brush yourself off
waiting for you to be a victim of love

waiting for you to come home
waiting for you to grab my hand
waiting for you to stare me down
waiting for you to turn your back

waiting for the comfortable silence
waiting for the final blow
waiting for your pledge of devotion
waiting for your crossed fingers

I Am Waiting**

I am waiting for my case to come up  
and I am waiting
for a rebirth of wonder
and I am waiting for someone
to really discover America
and wail
and I am waiting  
for the discovery
of a new symbolic western frontier  
and I am waiting  
for the American Eagle
to really spread its wings
and straighten up and fly right
and I am waiting
for the Age of Anxiety
to drop dead
and I am waiting
for the war to be fought
which will make the world safe
for anarchy
and I am waiting
for the final withering away
of all governments
and I am perpetually awaiting
a rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for the Second Coming  
and I am waiting
for a religious revival
to sweep thru the state of Arizona  
and I am waiting
for the Grapes of Wrath to be stored  
and I am waiting
for them to prove
that God is really American
and I am waiting
to see God on television
piped onto church altars
if only they can find  
the right channel  
to tune in on
and I am waiting
for the Last Supper to be served again
with a strange new appetizer
and I am perpetually awaiting
a rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for my number to be called
and I am waiting
for the Salvation Army to take over
and I am waiting
for the meek to be blessed
and inherit the earth  
without taxes
and I am waiting
for forests and animals
to reclaim the earth as theirs
and I am waiting
for a way to be devised
to destroy all nationalisms
without killing anybody
and I am waiting
for linnets and planets to fall like rain
and I am waiting for lovers and weepers
to lie down together again
in a new rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for the Great Divide to be crossed  
and I am anxiously waiting
for the secret of eternal life to be discovered  
by an obscure general practitioner
and I am waiting
for the storms of life
to be over
and I am waiting
to set sail for happiness
and I am waiting
for a reconstructed Mayflower
to reach America
with its picture story and tv rights
sold in advance to the natives
and I am waiting
for the lost music to sound again
in the Lost Continent
in a new rebirth of wonder

I am waiting for the day
that maketh all things clear
and I am awaiting retribution
for what America did  
to Tom Sawyer  
and I am waiting
for Alice in Wonderland
to retransmit to me
her total dream of innocence
and I am waiting
for Childe Roland to come
to the final darkest tower
and I am waiting  
for Aphrodite
to grow live arms
at a final disarmament conference
in a new rebirth of wonder

I am waiting
to get some intimations
of immortality
by recollecting my early childhood
and I am waiting
for the green mornings to come again  
youth’s dumb green fields come back again
and I am waiting
for some strains of unpremeditated art
to shake my typewriter
and I am waiting to write
the great indelible poem
and I am waiting
for the last long careless rapture
and I am perpetually waiting
for the fleeing lovers on the Grecian Urn  
to catch each other up at last
and embrace
and I am awaiting  
perpetually and forever
a renaissance of wonder