There's a full moon
And nights like these shouldn't be wasted
Because for once,
I'm not just over here
And you're not just over there

they told me when you smile
it lights up the whole town
but i saw you as the sun
and the moon and all the stars
because you create the summer
and brighten up the night
You wouldnt need to smile,
because you already are the light

when you spoke to me,
your words caressed
they sounded like the sea,
washing away the sad imprints left on the shore

but when i spoke to you
my words screamed
they pounded on your door like a murderer
until you gave up
because i demanded to stay on your mind
for far too long

and that must've hurt.

I was thinking about you
when my steps avoided the fractures
I knew they bring bad luck
And so i didnt want to fall

you are in love with a girl
and you think she is beautiful
you remind her everyday

you want her for yourself
but she has shadows
and they chase

her smile is empty
though you think
it's her prettiest curve

And her veins
they run with blood
she hates it -you've observed

you are in love with a girl
but she has nothing to offer
she despises herself, there is no heart to rob her

i cried so much
that the cries turned into screams
and i drowned in my own salt water

Is this life
or is this death
it feels like hell
therefore i must be dead

I have spaces between my fingers
And scrapes along my knees
And there are cracks between my lips
Where empty words are breathed
Now can you see - that i am not complete?
Im waiting for your arrival
and when you come, please do not leave

Hand me a candle
though its dark inside
ill blow it out
and darling,
ill make a wish to die

I thought i was drowning
but the moon casts only beams
I thought i was drowning
then realised  it flooded out from me

The sadness isnt cruel
to survive, there's certain things to do
If only it would leave me
Because i only have room for you

Im not sleeping, not tonight,
Too many thoughts running through my mind,
Too many whispers, too much pain,
Rather think and think and start again.
Stare at the stars and think of regrets
Pray to my God for all the help i can get.

My thoughts they'll be louder than even my words.
Though as loud as they are, they'll never be heard.

to blow out the candle and mutter words of hope
used to beautiful ,signifying growth
but now all i want and all that i plead
Is that i wont remain
in time for another wish received.

Oh how i wish
I were like you,
As my heart
Would stop beating too

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she used to be afraid
to drown in pool water
but now her thoughts
tell her to jump further

Its four am in the morning
And my thoughts wandered as they do
Found it sad to think
That you hate being you...

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Sometimes a smile doesnt say
'im okay'
Sometimes it means
'im trying to be  *brave...'

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the river was sad
so i gave it a hug...
i didnt want to come back up

And guilt decided
to leak from my eyes.

Im no longer
a disguise...

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I want to fall
I think ill fall
but if i fall will you catch me.....


*because there is a bridge and i want to fall

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Bruises, they fade.
But these memories
...will stay

Why would you waste your memories,
On someone like me?
Im not what you think,
Im not what you see.

Im not always happy,
Never have been.
My mind is a mess,
Please help me become clean.

These smiles that show
Mean nothing, they're fake.
I dont care anymore
Just take away my ache

You deserve  so much better
Like the princess over there.
Help her lift her head up,
Tiara's slipping, off her hair

I dont think
That im talented, special nor sweet
I dont want you wasting time,
On a girl, known as me...

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You could lie and say
that youre not worth it
Break your soul
And all your hopes

You could deny and say
That you're not pretty
Break your soul
And all your smiles

You could delude yourself and say
That youre nothing special
Betray yourself
And all the world

You could lie and say
That youre just fine
And waste away
as they all believe

You could lie and smile
Then giggle and laugh
But they wont notice
That inside... youre dead

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I want to smile
And say 'im fine'
And i want that
One day...
To not be a lie

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Her eyes were red,
They showed her pain
It was obvious,
That she was crying again.

Her voice, just a whisper
Insignificant as dust
She's searching for someone
Someone to trust

She smiled and laughed
While her eyes remained empty
Strange that a smile
Can hide things so deadly

Her wrists show no scars
But her soul, tampered and broken
Their words were like weapons
Invisible when spoken

Her eyes were red,
They showed her pain
It was obvious,
That she was crying again...

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I want to sleep forever
Rest my head and never wake
My dreams are so impeccable
They take away the ache

I want to sleep forever
Beside your perfect smile
And if I ever wake
Seeing you would make it worthwhile

I want to sleep forever
Close my eyes as time goes by
That way, I will never
Have to be there for the painful goodbyes

I want to sleep forever
Then wake in paradise
There i'll meet my uncle
there, I'll finally see his eyes