so i ask you, sage, in all sincerity how to put aside a ridiculous pride...a palpable fear to let fly the asking?
easy? no. i have found no easy thing worth doing or loving. i don't want ease i want l o v e that i would burn bridges for a struggle of understanding that will keep me alive and whole a sickening rush worth every sacrifice.
paralyzing terror because nothing is due me... nothing should be expected so nothing can be misplaced misguided
restraint, restraint!!! yes?! yes. that must be the answer.
for if not restraint, then earth shaking love. and if the earth shakes people might get hurt.