Nobody

Nobody Jun 2016

Homeless

I have home
But I'm homeless
Strange indeed

I should feel home in my own body
But I don't, I never did.

That's probably why I've been dreaming to have someone,
Someone I can claim my home.

That's probably why I always felt I should be somewhere else,
Because nowhere is home.

Nobody Apr 2016

Anonymity

It's terrifying,
knowing you can never know,
who someone is.

Someone can talk to you everyday,
But never actually told you anything.

Someone can wear a smile perfectly,
But is actually in tremendous pain.

Someone can treat you as a friend,
But never even considered you as one.

Someone can make you feel special,
But you are actually nothing to them.

Do you truly know someone?

Nobody Apr 2016

The View

It's one thirty in the afternoon,
Still waiting to be interviewed
For a job I might never get.

Looking outside from a 17th floor of a 30 story building, I got amazed by how beautifully blue the sky is,
The brightness of the sun perfectly compliments the color of the sky.

People walking under the heat of the sun;
Their cheeks being kissed by warm air that passes by,
The warm wind blowing their hair,
And blowing the leaves of the trees beside the streets.

Seeing these simple yet spectacular beauty,
Makes me want to sit still until my eyes slowly closed... permanently
But then my name was called.

Nobody Mar 2016

Some Kind Of Happiness

Here I am lying in my bed
In my favourite place to be
Listening to a good arrangement of sounds
With well articulated words
I could never speak
Letting it pull me down
Underneath the sea
Letting it drown me for hours
Breathing is hard
But I somehow find myself
Loving this feeling

Nobody Jan 2016

Heartbeat

I'm not even nervous
But my heart beats like it is
I can feel every beat of it on my chest
Beat beat beat

I'm calmly walking down the street,
But my heart beats like I've been running all along
Beat beat beat

I'm having a friendly conversation,
But my heart beats like I'm hearing something devastating
Beat beat beat

I'm listening to my favorite songs,
Slowly my heartbeat rhythms with every tone I hear, and feels every beat on my head

It's the only kind of beat I desire to feel and hear

Nobody Jan 2016

Things I Long For

I hope the day comes
The day I finally fall in love with this wonderful life
With the beauty that surrounds me

I want to feel privilege that I'm part of this sublime world
Feel each day as an exciting opportunity to be alive

To fall in love with someone who loves me as his girl and treats me as a human being
To make someone feel fortunate he still breathes whenever he sees me

Be in a place where it feels like home
Somewhere that will make me feel I belong

Nobody Jul 2013

The Thermostat - Thermometer

In the land of Temperature
I met Thermostat - Thermometer

What does thermometer do anyway?
A thermometer tells you the temperature whether it’s cold or hot
But it does nothing about the situation it identifies
It only measures and whether we like it or not
What about thermostat?
Thermostats function in a way that when it senses a room is cold,
it quickly and quietly starts the machinery necessary to bring the cold room to an acceptable temperature
If a room is hot, a thermostat cues the system to cool the room
It restores the balance, it assess the situation and make a difference.
I named her Thermostat – Thermometer
‘Cause she can be a thermostat to others
When she senses there’s something wrong around her
She always does something to make it right like a thermostat does
Sadly, she can only be a thermometer to herself
She knows there’s something wrong with her
Yet she can’t do something
‘Cause she also needs a thermostat
A thermostat to make it right for her

It makes me wonder how many people out there
Acting like thermostat to others
But they can only act as thermometer to theirselves
Hoping that someday
A thermostat changes the situation where they are in