Even though we were together for the shortest time
It was the best season of my life
When I bloomed
Thrived and found myself
Now that it is over I shall continue to grow.
I want nothing more than the same for you.

keep loving you...

Sometimes it hurts too much.. to love..and to miss you.. but you are so worth it..

All the heartache, the pain and the suffering is all nothing compared to the love and belonging..

Do you think, maybe
we could be the kind of exes
who check up on each other
once in a while?
Because I have been talking to you
in my head, with myself
for so long,
and it's difficult to be in touch with reality.
Maybe if I text and you reply,
it would shatter this delusion.

You came to me.
For validation, for distraction.
Not the other way around.
I kept telling myself, I must love you
because I do all these things for you.
I convinced myself, It must be love
Why else would I put myself through so much pain?

It's not your fault,
that I fell hard for you.
I shouldn't have let you take over me.
You never meant for it to happen,
I gave myself unasked.

I did it for the Memories.

Let me unwrap you,
Thread by thread,
See you, see every fiber that makes you,
Let me untangle the knots.
Embrace you and tie us together in this eternal bond.

Allow me to kiss your scars
Let me love your wounds from the past
Let me breathe you in
Take you as a souvenir
And keep you safe in me.

hate me..
***** me and throw me..
I'm already scarred
what difference does a few more blemishes make..
Paint me black with sin and burn me at the pyre..
I will take it all, in fact enjoy it all for you.

I'm happy that you never really understood me
And if you hate me more,
That is great too
I don't have to worry about you missing me
when I'm gone
I don't have to keep pushing through all this
for you anymore
I can rest assured that you will be happier without me
More at peace, less guilt, moving on to something better.
That's all I want for you.
To move on and be happy.
So I won't tell you if I'm dying here without you.

Whatever happens, just remember
None of it is your fault
You are not responsible for how others make you feel
However, you are responsible for what you do with that feeling
Don't indulge in things that are not you
Just because the other person is that way.
Always be your authentic self.
It's never too late to get back to yourself

There are all these people,  who love me.
and then there's you, whom I love.
The only one I really care about, whom I want to protect, to hold close always and care for.

I try to reach you,
to save you from drowning.
I dive in and give my all.
but I am the one gasping for air

while you have learnt to breathe
under water.

You ask me what's wrong.
if I am ok.
what is bothering me.

Will you forgive me if I say,
that it is you ?
that I am in love with you
and it is consuming me.

It is consuming my life.
what I stand for,
everything I have built.
Nothing but you
makes sense anymore.

if i were a boy..
i'd care enough to say i miss you when im away..
i'd sit down and talk..
make you feel better, so that u dont miss me that much...

if i were a boy,
i'd step up to you,
and and show how much i love you, when you re insecure..

if i were a boy,
i wouldn't hide,
i would let you know my feelings,
and be with u even when i hurt you, if u cry...

if i were a boy,
i'd say i love you only when i mean it,
and mean it everyday,
even though u re the same eachday..