Don't fall in love with the guy who knows how to touch you
He'll just start to pick and choose what places he prefers
and before you notice it it'll be months since your tummy has felt loved
years since your knees have been caressed with kisses
and your scars will forget the feeling of another's person fingertips running up along them
you used to be my gamma rays
you went through my membrane, through all the other science concepts I could never concentrate on because of you
you brushed past my DNA
changed my genetic material so that no matter how many years had passed it would still be you
still you I imagined touching me when it was midnight and I was in bed with some boy who was in love with some other girl
the first time you touched me you touched me with the purpose of getting to know every inch of me
because you said

I remember every kiss we ever kissed, you kissed me 1,923 times, I remember our first kiss and I remember our last kiss and every single kiss in between, I remember that time that night when I was standing in the middle of the street and your parents were waiting for you back at home and I looked you in the eyes and I told you I could die exactly that moment and I wouldn't regret a single thing, I remember when we were in the park, and I was crying because I knew you were leaving soon, you kissed me on every single bench, beneath every single  tree, I remember the kiss that was suppose to be our last, you shouldn't have come back, but I don't remember every kiss I kissed trying to replace yours, I don't remember the names of all those people who touched my skin, but I remember us on those stairs, I had been in love with you for months by then, my hand was shaking and I leaned in and just as you had time to acknowledge what happened I left, I cried that night, I don't know why, maybe I knew what was coming, I remember how you told me you never thought you would not want to kiss me,

I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE GONE, I'VE MISSED YOU EVERY DAY SINCE YOU LEFT, SOMETIMES I SMELL YOU ON THE PEOPLE AT THE STORE, I'M SLOWLY FORGETTING WHAT YOU SMELLED OF, WE HAVEN'T TALKED IN MONTHS, I HOPE WHOEVER YOU'RE WITH RIGHT NOW APPRECIATES YOU, I HOPE THEY DON'T DRIVE YOU INSANE, I HOPE THEY KISS YOU UNTIL IT'S PERFECT, I HOPE YOU LOVE THEM MORE THAN YOU COULD'VE EVER LOVED ME, I STILL WRITE ABOUT YOU, I STILL LOOK FOR YOU IN EMPTY PARK BENCHES, I STILL ALMOST TEXT YOU WHEN I HAVE NIGHTMARES, OH GOD I MISS YOU, I'M GIVING AWAY ALL YOUR STUFF TO PEOPLE WHO AREN'T IN LOVE WITH YOU, BUT SOMETIMES I DREAM ABOUT US, AND FOR A SPLIT SECOND BEFORE I WAKE UP I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU ALL OVER AGAIN, AND AS IT FADES I TRY DESPERATELY TO HOLD ON, COME BACK AND TEACH ME HOW TO LET GO PLEASE, YOU MADE IT SEEM SO EASY, MAYBE IT'LL BE EASIER THE SECOND TIME AROUND, COME BACK, LEAVE, I'LL SEE YOU IN MY DREAMS TONIGHT

My mom always warned me to not make homes out of people,
I should've listened.
But somehow the way your hips felt while I held you in the middle of the street at 11 PM reminded me of my childhood home,
And it never snows in my hometown but you're beautiful like waking up to snow on Christmas morning,
Cold.
My father left when I was 7 and when you promised to stay I wanted to hold you,
But two months after that I asked you if you still loved me and you said not really,
It always hurts more the 2nd time around.
My psychologist told me to not let you complete me,
but I had this princess bed when I was 5 and I love you.
When I met you the house I lived in had crumbled to the ground,
So you took me to parks in an intent to make those my homes.
But little did you know that I knew every detail about the way you moved and I would've been able to trace you in pitch blackness.
When you left I remembered how when my mom saw my scars she cried.
She told me that although our family was small we were still a family.
After that I promised myself I would always smile at the homeless.
My runaway heart is still searching for its home in you

YOU HAVE SO MUCH LIGHT FLOWERS GROW TOWARD YOU, AND I WOULD TRUST YOU HANDLING THE ROOTS IN-BETWEEN MY RIBCAGES AND I HOPE YOUR FINGERNAILS FILL UP WITH DIRT AND THEY TALK YOU INTO FALLING IN LOVE WITH ME, AND I HOPE YOU KISS ME AS IF YOU WERE A BEE AND I WAS THE ONE FLOWER THAT GREW THROUGH THUNDERSTORMS JUST TO FEEL YOU AGAINST ME, THE PETALS TOLD ME YOU DO, AND I ONCE READ YOU CAN'T GROW FLOWERS WITH FISTS SO I'LL HOLD YOU INSTEAD INTO WHATEVER YOU MAY GROW, WITH TEARS AND SIGHS REPLACING SUNSHINE AND WATER, AND WHEREVER THE WIND MAY TAKE YOU REMEMBER THERES A STEM BELOW ME WITH YOUR NAME ON IT THAT KEEPS ME WAITING

107,602,707,791, that's the number of people who have ever lived,
but you tell me there's never been anyone quite like me,
4,949,724,558,386, that's how many chromosomes have rusted along this planet's edge until they found the perfect combition along your DNA,
53,801,353,895, that's how many couples could have happened, would have happened, maybe even should've happened,
6.7% of people in the world are depressed, have been depressed, will be depressed,
107,602,707,791 times 6.7%,
that's 7,209,381,422 people who haven't met you,
I'm no mathematician but you're in all the numbers of my body

SOMETIMES I THINK ABOUT YOU, SOMETIMES I WANT TO KISS YOU, GOD YOU'RE SO PRETTY WHEN YOU WEAR YOUR HAIR LIKE THAT, HOLD MY HAND PLEASE, SNORT COKE WITH ME AND KISS ME SO THAT THE STARS AND THE ASTEROIDS WILL WONDER WHAT THEIR PURPOSE IN LIFE IS, I WISH YOU WOULD WISH I WAS THERE, LETS MAKE BUTTERFLIES CRAWL IN THROUGH OUR EARS, LETS DESTROY THE PLACES WHERE ALL THOSE PEOPLE FELL OUT OF LOVE, LETS SKIP SCHOOL AND GO WRITE POETRY BY THAT LAKE, I'LL PROMISE I'LL BE GOOD TO YOU, CAUSE I'VE HAD SOME ISSUES BUT THE PLANTS HAVE HELPED ME GET THROUGH THEM AND IF YOU WERE A MERMAID, I WOULD DROWN FOR JUST A CHANCE TO WITNESS YOUR KIND OF BEAUTY, SPILL OUT YOUR ROOTS TO ME, I PROMISE I WILL GROW THEM INTO BEAUTIFUL FLOWERS, I PROMISE I WILL HOLD THEM UNTIL THEY CAN STAND BY THEMSELVES, WE'RE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HERE, BUT HEY LOOK MY HAND IS AROUND YOUR WAIST AND I WOULDN'T PREFER TO BE ANYWHERE ELSE, I WISH YOU WOULD'VE STUCK AROUND LONG ENOUGH TO HAVE DONE EVERYTHING IN THE WORLD WITH ME, LOVE ME WITH A LOVE THAT'S MORE THAN LOVE