Do not fall for their eyes
They are filled with deceiving lies

Do not listen to their treacherous words
They will cast a spell on you with a curse.

I know love is essential for you to yearn
But with this one you will never learn

They will **** all your love out
leaving your heart with a drought

They are not worthy of you and your love
you are way above

My body
My mind
My heart
Is filled with rage..anger.

why are you so ******* stupid Myrka?

I ask myself that everyday

What did I see in you?
How could I ever believe in you
When you showed me a million different ways that you aren’t ****
How can you be filled with so much cockiness, when you have one ugly soul
You like to hurt
Take advantage
Destroy
Drained their soul
and fill all of the tears,
the broken pieces of their heart
the love  
into your egotistical heart.
Leaving them without nothing.

Almost lifeless

You know what’s treacherous?
LOVE
and as pure as it sounds..it is followed by a dark shadow.
It may look like sunshine and rainbows but there’s a hurricane that comes with it. It will wipe everything away from you.
Your happiness
Your worth
Your heart
It will leave you wondering what on earth did you do to deserve to feel like you were not worthy of the sunshine and rainbows.
It will come in all suddenly, unexpectedly.
Without no red flags.

Enough.

I’m tired.

Of always hearing those two **** words

After the same **** ups that you always do

You asked me If I was over you.

I said “i don’t know”
At least that’s how it feels like sometimes
But deep down...
Buried underneath all this thick skin and through the chambers of my heart..
this heart still beats for you.

Heavily

But I must keep it away from you
Hoping it will grow accustomed to your absence.

You came in like a ufo
Coming into my world without no hint

I don’t know what is the purpose of your existence here in my world

But I sense kindness
And love

It’s only been a couple of days but you make me feel beautiful
You bring me inspiration

You are like a song that I cannot stop listening to
A beautiful melody

So what am I feeling? I don’t quite know yet.
I’m scared but at the same time
Temptation is falling into my heart
And I want to risk it.

You had me trapped in my chrysalis
Refusing me to metamorphisize into something beautiful

Each tear
anger
hurt
Formed wings

& I flew
Never looking back,
Becoming a beautiful butterfly

It’s her
The girl that you started to like
While you were with me

Now that you’re with her
You wanted me in your life still
You wanted to have both.

I will not stand here in your life just to fulfill your satisfaction
I will not feel sorry for you once karma reaches you

It’s so sad how you are still the same person
You have not change
And that’s the sad truth

I gave you my heart
And I watched you take it
You squeezed all the love and blood out
Until it stopped pumping
You looked me in the eye while doing it.
No remorse.
You were incapable of falling for me all this time

I’m sorry for giving you everything I had without making sure you wanted it

Come to me,
come,
Come to me
You brought the sun to me

When will it stop?
The hysteric cries?
The excruciating feel of your heart breaking?
The love?
The sadness
The feeling of being unwanted
I want it to all end.

Never fall in love with the one who makes you cry (all the time)
Never fall in love with the one that belittles your feelings.
Never fall in love with the one who says they will never hurt you
Never fall in love with the one who says they love you but their actions shows otherwise
Never fall in love with the one with many apologies after each **** up they make
Never fall in love with the one that always leave
Never fall in love with the one that doesn’t make time for you
Never fall in love with the one who always makes excuses.
Never fall in love with someone who gives you 1% when you give 99%
Never fall in love with the one you sell your soul to
Never fall in love with the one who asks for a million chances. They shouldn’t have hurt you in the first place.
Never fall in love with someone who promises forever
Never fall in love with someone who makes empty promises

My heart feels like it’s about ready to burst
The stitches and bandaids can no longer keep it whole
each wound starts expanding, breaking it more apart
my broken pieces cannot be put back together.
To my heartbreaker, if this is it, can you carve my heart out? And donate mine to your jar of hearts.

I love you and I know that doesn’t make sense because how can I still love you after experiencing the most ****** thing. but all I know is that everything made sense when I was with you. I wish you could come back to me. I felt so safe.
I love you with all my heart and I wish you could have chosen me I wish for so many things out of you and me.  But I know I can’t be with someone who isn’t even sure about me what kind of relationship is that right?
I’m not naive,  you may be my first love but that doesn’t mean it was supposed to be like this. I’m not naive because I knew exactly how I felt about you and I’m pretty sure I’m grown enough to know what the **** to feel.
You were my best friend my other half and it’s not easy losing two people at once. It’s not easy losing the person that means so much to you  
I don’t know when it will ever be enough for me. I just know that this love keeps going. You still give me butterflies whenever you talk to me. And if I were to see you right now I know my whole face would feel  hot.
I get so happy whenever you text me.
I wish you were sure about me I wish you could commit to me, I wouldn’t ever hurt you
I would protect you.  And love and cherish you.
I guess none of these things were enough for you to stay. I guess you’re seeking for something else that I can’t give you. Even if we’re no longer in each other’s world I still pray for  you & your well being. And even if it means you being happy without my existence I still wish it upon you. I miss you terribly and not a day goes by that I don’t think of you.
*these are all the things I want to say but I can’t.

Mother,
You told me not to make the same mistakes and settle for someone who doesn’t value me.
To not believe a word they say when they come back running just because they can’t find anyone willing to put up with their ****
I know you made that mistake with dad, I know how much disappointment you faced when he turned cold.
I understand every emotion and heartbreak you went through
Because I’m just like you
I kept having hope.
You cried for me every time she turned cold
You kept telling me to walk away before it’s too late
And if it wasn’t for you I would still be in that same place.
Dad may have not seen the diamonds in your eyes,
But you are the sun and you keep shining every **** day.

I might call you
After every bit of my blood drowns into alcohol

I gave my heart to a ******* fool

I can talk to anyone
Hold hands with anyone
Hug anyone
Kiss anyone
And i still wouldn’t feel at home.

*you felt like home

Lord only knows how much love I have for you girl
We met when both of our hearts were broken
We cried together
We laughed
We been through everything and honestly there is not a single soul that could replace you
i need you
And this is an oath to you
No matter how far apart we come in life
I will always be here for you
And I will do anything for you
You are my best friend
And I love you with all my heart
**Happy Birthday

“I forgive you, Wether or not you are sorry for anything you have done. I forgive you, if it is true what i’ve heard, that you fooled around with a girl during your ten day leave. I forgive you for leaving without saying a word to me. I forgive you for making me feel unworthy after hearing that you thought that i wasn’t pretty enough for you to date... perhaps you never think of me anymore and maybe this means nothing to you. so i guess this is mostly for me, but i forgive you. and just a little tip, don’t be a coward...be the kind of guy you’d want your sister to be with. Happy birthday,“

My heart started to beat very fast
My face felt hot

Walking past you and pretending we’ve never spent 8 years of our lives together Was not as easy as it looked.

Part of me wanted to go to you and just hug you and feel that warmth again
I wanted to feel safe.

The other part felt anger
I wanted to punch you and demanded to know why the ******* played games with me

However I did neither of those things
I walked past you and ignored your presence
I held my pride in
Until I was alone, where no one can hear my hysteric cries

I still cry for you
Because it still hurts

This burning flame has been burnt enough

I remember it all too well.
The feeling of feeling lucky
thinking this is a forever thing.
you and me

There is no way in unsaying I love you
Because I feel it deep in my flesh
in my broken heart

It's been months
And i am still on quicksand
Stuck on you
The sinking is very dreadful
Minutes turn to an hour
An hour turns into years.

*and all I can do is write sad words about you

I'm drowning from the massive flood of tears
Will i survive?
All the signs were there
To evacuate
I kept telling myself "**** it"
Now I'm here, barely hanging
It's tempting to let myself go
And let this consume me

I'm not a crazy person.
I swear I'm not
I just get really sad
& I do whatever I can to grab the slightest bit of your attention.
I want to see that you care as much as I do.
But you get mad.
And ignore my existence
I get more sad
Craving more of your affection
You continue to throw every bit of me into the abyss

I went ballistic
I let everything out
I know that wasn't the reaction you were expecting
But I'm tired
Of excuses
& the sorry's
that you don't even mean