Dear Anne,

Please always remember that this heart of mine knows no distance. It will keep on loving you, while holding on to vivid images of how your curls fall down your beautiful shoulders, or how you smile sheepishly and makes me wanna kiss you when you do.

It will wait for the right chances, for the right time.

And I will keep on dreaming about you every night and waking up with my heart beating so much faster, and with a smile on my face (though sometimes, they come with tears).

You are always loved.

Always,

Your mims.

Dear Anne,

For the last days, the stars have been witness to how my nights became a pouring of my heart and soul into words. I have been kept up all night by the yearning of putting into words all that I am feeling now - a mix of hope, fears, dreams and above all, love. The stars have fallen one by one, sacrificing their light just to grant my wish, one wish I whisper over and over again as each star falls.

You are the only star I am now waiting to fall; to fall for me and I, with a prepared heart to capture that star all over again. I will burn, yes. But together, we will shine.

You are always loved, Anne. :)

Mims

I hope I can show you my world
Where summer means cool winds
Where in fall, the sun shines but the world
brings chills
and furry jackets
but has the most beautiful sunrises and crisp air.
Where winter washes out all the greens
and paints the world white
and spring breathes
back life once again.

I hope I can walk with you
along the River Valley
a haven in the city
where I know we'd enjoy running, biking
or even just strolling around (holding each others' hand)
and maybe one day walking our own pet cat, or dog, or even a guinea pig
which we've always planned to have.

I hope one day
I wake up
to see you beside me
as I show you around
this unfamiliar city
which will only be home
when with you.

Because this heart
will do its best
all its best
to show you it has changed
to be better
for you.

And only you.

I will walk until the other side of the world
just to find that girl-
my girl-
who has the right
to own a star
in my night sky.
(and I tell you, she does have a star named after her ;) )



:)

They say
you only know
what you're made of
when you're broken.

I found out
I am made of Lego blocks -
capable
of being destroyed
rebuilt
restructured
from one form to the next.

I have been
a dark fortress
with dungeons and dragons
and creatures
that crawl out from the night

But I have been broken down

I have been taken down,
piece by piece by little piece,
lost a couple of parts,
and now
is slowly being rebuilt
into a treehouse
full of rainbows, fairies
and happy thoughts
Ahh Neverland, that's what they call it
And I will fly
My one and only Wendy
to this new home.

I will
flutter away
for a while
into the second star to the right
and straight on
'til morning.

I will wait there
in solitude
for you.
With fear, yes
that you might not look for me
nor forget about me
and I, be one with the lost boys
of Neverland;
forgotten, never heard of
and would never grow up.

But more than fear,
much more intensely
more than fear,
is my heart soaring high
of pixie dust and
happy thoughts
of you and me.
That after this pilgrimage,
as I come back
you will be there
by the window,
waiting for my shadow
reaching out for my hand
and together,
we will fly away.

Sa pagtulog mo
ang tanging hiling
ay mayakap ka.
Ang bawat awit
na hinuhuni ng aking puso
ay alay
para lamang sayo.

Nakakapit sa pag-asang
magdadaop muli ang ating mga palad,
na matititigan kong muli
ang iyong mga mata
habang
ang ating mga labi
ay unti unting naglalapit
para sa isang halik
na pinakaaasam.
Ang halik
na siyang bubuhay muli
sa daloy
ng ating minsang ipinangakong
pag-ibig na wagas.

*note: This poem is in the Filipino/Tagalog language from the Philippines

You remember
how I told you
that sleep is
my salvation?

Yet now,
I deprive myself of it
just to get the chance
to hear your stories
and anecdotes;
to know how you are,
and how your day went
Because you're all
worth my while.

When you know
You messed up
The most beautiful thing you've had
And your tears
Rush down your cheeks
With knowledge
That
Out there,
There may be others
That would steal away
The happiness
You only know.

But I am not letting you go.

This heart
Will fight
For the girl
That turned her life around.
The girl who
Made her realize
she has all the potential
To be better,
For herself and for you.

Can you tell that
I have not slept very well
since the last time
I heard your voice?

I have been tossing around my bed
With so much
envy that others can just see you
and be with you
any time they wish.

I ask myself
Who you may have talked with
or been with
the whole day?
Or who the last person
were you able to see
before your day ends?

Because from 5000 miles away
I admit,
That from where you are
You have the power
to make
or break my day
with just a hello.
And that you
are the last thing on my mind
before I slumber,
the first thought
as I rise;
and even in my dreams -
It's you-
between asleep and awake.

*ps. Can you tell, with the rate of words spilling out of my heart unendingly for the past days, that I have been thinking about you so much?

You
make me feel like a child
looking out through the window
witnessing the first fall of
fresh snow
on Christmas Morning.

And when you smile
it melts away all the cold
And I find myself
dancing under the flurries.

Some say
they feel sparks when they see the love of their lives pass by.

I say
It's a full display of fireworks in me -
An array of all colors and hues
and shapes and sizes
All in full
High definition -
as you walk my way.

And yes, it felt exactly that way the first night we kissed,
And it still feels that way until now.
**Or even so much more

You know you have been
Hit too hard
When you have not stopped crying
yourself to sleep
Ever since she decided to walk away

When you cannot finish a song
That reminds you
Of how perfect
And magical
and eternal
You both were
Until you were broken

You know you have not loved anyone else
As intense as how you love her
When she is the only girl
That you have consistently had as your last thought
Before sleeping late (you never liked sleeping late)
And you wake up
In the wee hours of the morning
After dreaming about her

But you know you have been hit too hard
and that you have loved no one else
as great as how you love her now
For you are willing
to endure everyday
and every night
this beautiful madness.

You said
It might be better
For us to be strangers again

Strangers who have no idea about each other
Who do not know anything about
Our favourite food (so I should start forgetting that you do not eat tomatoes, pineapples and olives; and that I should be willing to eat them all for you because coincidently, they were my favourite)
Or the way we want our eggs cooked
(crunchy on the side. soft yolk - mine, well done)
Or our dreams, failures, fears and inhibitions.

But remember,
We were once strangers
That one September day (it was the seventh, I believe)
I first got a glimpse
Of that little girl
That would change my life for eternity

And when I see you again
I will make you remember
This stranger
That loved you and known you more than
any stranger could do.

(2nd letter for the day- I guess that was how much I thought about you today)

Why do the past two days
(forty eight hours
two thousand eight hundred and eighty eight minutes)
Feel like eternity
After that last moment
I saw you
(Pixelated, but every detail of you was vivid in my mind. You were even wearing something I knew was one of my favourites - because I once told you how you looked wonderful in red)

Why does it feel like forever
When I do not know where and how you are
Or if I could do anything
To make your day

But if waiting for the right moment
Would take
An exponential growth
And intensified feeling of eternity
Then let me wait.

I wake up
Even before the world does
And bask
Under the full moon's light

I remember how you adore the full moon
How you'd always wish
To have your toes buried in creamy sand
With waves crashing
And Luna's light watching you from the horizon

And I remember
My futile attempt
Of illustrating how much I love you
Through hares and coloured pencils and
a Little Prince scrapbook
To let you know that I love you to the moon
and back (and yes, it holds true until today)

As I watch the moon from where I sit
(in an almost empty, moving train - the sun has not risen yet)
I know, out there, you might be admiring it too
And that's enough comfort for me, for now
To know that we're still under the same sky
You can never be too far.

It was unexpected
A twist in my life's course and fate
To find myself entangled with her charm

She was just there
A meek, strong willed, little, i sometime even think tiny, coloured-haired girl
Who one had to see beyond bridges and brick walls
To get to know the woman inside that's so much larger than life

She had a wit beyond words
Who first captured me with her thoughts of black and yellow striped camels
Out of the blue
As thoughts to lull to sleep

She had a heart more than a mother's
Who had every inch of concern for the people around her
From whom i had the best time being taken cared of

I took my chances,
Broke hearts and friendships, even...
But I knew she was worth it.

I was blessed to be hers,
To be given the chance for her to be called mine.
To wake up beside her
To have her as the last person to hold before slumber
And the first to lay eyes on as, or even before, the sun sheds light on us
All bundled up in fluffy sheets
Cuddled in each others arms
Like nothing else mattered (and nothing did)

But despite all the happiness
Despite knowing I had something perfect,
I made mistakes.
Pushed her away
Lost the only best friend I ever knew
And most painful of all
Broke a fragile heart that does not deserve this pain i inflicted

Now that my world has turned 360 over
I have lost myself, found out what really matters
Figured out that one of the biggest mistake I have done, has actually been committed early on in this life of mine.
I lost her.
But I am taking my chances again.
I will find her,
Do everything all over again if I have to
Just to be with her again.
If it means reintroducing myself,
Like that very first day I shook hands with her.
Even if it means making her fall for me all over again,
Like how she did that night she accepted me as hers
If I have to let all the stars fall
Like how it did that one night we were just lying on our backs, side by side each other... As if we owned the world (And i know for a moment there, we did)
I will.
I will gather them up, make them light up her night sky
Just to have all the wishes I can buy
To ask for her
Over and over again.

I will just be here.
I will fight the good fight.
Silently, miles away.
For you are all worth it.

I hope one day you wake up
Thinking about me.
Remembering how I kiss your ears
Until you giggle
How I hold your hand while you drive
(those were the only times I thanked God for traffic)
How I grab you from behind at your waist.
hugging you from your back
While I smell your hair
that you curled because I told you I like them that way
(and I really really do)

I hope one day you wake up
Wishing I was beside you
Like how it was on cold, north-of-the-metro trips we've had
Where we wake up to each other's body warmth
With good morning kisses (and I don't care about our morning breath)
And alarm snoozes to buy time to cuddle more in bed

I hope one day you wake up
Yearning for me,
For how I kiss you in your forehead
For how my voice sounded when I call you 'babe', 'baby' or 'my little girl'
Or how I look at you
During those mornings, afternoons and nights
where you entrusted me with yourself
And I tell you how beautiful you look
With wearing nothing else but your smile
(and have I told you over and over how I loved that smile? That smile you rarely give others, that smile that was once mine.)

I hope one day you wake up
And give me the sweetest kiss
That would be the only thing that could awaken me
While I am in this deep slumber
Until I am back in your arms again.