Life flutters by so quickly
Just yesterday I was that depressed girl

Look at me now
Look at me now

Life is far from perfect
And so am I
But it's such a waste of time
To be anything other

Then yourself

Life is far from perfect
But everything is right
Devine on my speakers
Appreciate all you have

Don't fill your life with
But leave it blank
Like a dusty notebook on the shelf
Life is simple, why change that?

Drugs, ***, and habits to fill
Just make life all the harder
So let go, just let go
I know I have

My friends are like drinks in my hand
The more I have serves my
Inebriation at their jubilation
Though I feel I can barely stand
I enjoy my night filled with all
Sorts of drinks
But in the morning I'll feel
Their clangings in my head

I could never figure out
What was wrong with me
Why wherever I went
No one could see

That there was a person inside
Who had traits other than quiet
Who was sweet, kind, and funny
With enough loyalty to start a riot

No matter what I do
Or how close I get
I suppose not even my friends
Will understand what I meant

When I said things too deep
Or even out of thin air
They don't get the mind inside
I might as well not even share

If your love is unending, why must you go?
If you care at all times, why with your friends does it not show?
When all comes to end, will you be there?
Or will you be far away, pretending that you care?
These are all thoughts, I have when I'm weak
When I feel so sorrowful, I can't even speak
Even so, at these times of pain
More so of me, is thinking about what you've been saying
How you'll always love me, and I believe it's true
For I too, would never leave you
For when you are here, my sadness goes away
When it's just me and you, you know just what to say
When I need you, in times that are rough
You are there to help, and that is enough
Sometimes it's hard to believe I have you
But talking with you, I know that's untrue
I have realized all the pain, sorrow, and guilt
Are worth every second that we have built
Of this love that we share, so full of purity
That is helps me get past these days of insecurity

Such a pointless dream I suppose
To wish upon the fallen stars
And expect that everything goes
Without scratches nor scars
But I guess that dream shall never be
Just as all the others once dared dream
All those days, I will never see
And down my face those tears they stream
But it doesn't matter, for it's my own fault
My doubts will scream back at my face
As they come to a screeching halt
And disappear without a *trace

How can you give me half your heart
And say you love me true?
Like every time you muttered
"Babe, I wanna marry you"
Is it a fools pride? Stubbornness?
Or were you really just a dunce
To even try to think
"Hey, I love two girls at once"

I thought you knew
I thought you cared
You said it'd last
Look how that faired

So I'm tired and asleep
My heart casts nightmares of the break
But I'll manage as I do
Since pain is always what I take

Please don't come looking for me
I'll find you if I have a need
Numbness is my new best friend
Thanks for a taste of the apathy seed

If you can't tell from this poem
My hearts in disarray
The rhythm's all ******* up
Beating every other day

Guilt, it lives inside us all
Strives, drives, lives in us
Growing, tangling, vines to conspire
Sickening, ***** up your feeling
Pepto-Emotional, there's no such thing
Always something eating you,
Swallowing you whole, until that whole is cleared
Right or wrong?
There's just so many questions....
Conscious springs alive
Engulfing your soul, life, eternity
Darkness, ******* you in
Just search for the light,
The darkness will leave
Renewed, amend, forgive
Such a harsh emotion, so confusing
But it lives, breathes, sleeps
Within Y O U